My life is A lie

My life is A lie: One

"Someone fucking loved me, someone fucking loved me and I fucking loved them too. Goddammit I was worth something, I fucking earned something."

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I walked in the cafeteria with my head down, hoping my bestfriend Ela would poke my shoulder from behind like she always does. I sluggishly walked in the huge area as people's voices filled my ears. Ela took much longer today so I just went to find an empty table for myself and sat down. I placed my sandwich that was wrapped in foil on the table and looked around for Ela.

Snacks time is 20 minutes. It's been 10 minutes now and Ela still isn't here. Maybe I should've waited in the hallway for her. I rested my head on my hand and tapped my fingertips on my cheek as I stared at the clock.

After a few more minutes of waiting, I heard a very familiar high pitched girly voice mixing with some other unfamiliar voices. I looked behind from my shoulder to see Ela entering the cafeteria, laughing with my worst enemies. Wow..

I looked down on my lap as my mind entered my own world,,

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I tried to comfort Heart but she still had her face buried in her knees. Then someone walked in the huge, empty white room. "I told you."

I looked across to see Brain. Oh..

"I fucking told you, this is all your fault!" He began as he walked towards heart and I. "Why won't you just listen to me for once?"

"I-Im so-"

"What is "sorry" gonna do? Fix this cracked Heart over here? You do realize that if she keeps getting hurt like this then I cannot function properly."

I glanced over at the shuddering Heart and turned back to Brain with my eyes on the ground out of shame. Listening to Heart was a huge mistake and I didn't do it once but multiple times. But Heart is warm, kind and actually, too kind. Too innocent, too pure. Even though she got hurt so many times, she still convinces me to listen to her, and my dumbass self actually does. I keep forgetting that I'm the one who's making precious Heart so broken and cracked. She only has 3 to 4 bandages but all those cuts need more than bandages-- they need love. Love to fill those empty cracks and make her full again. That's what I'm trying to do. I feel like if I listen to Brain, then I cannot give Heart any love at all.

"I know what you're thinking, but this is just how this world is, Piya. You can't do anything to fix these people. Instead, you have to learn how to fit in. All you have to do is just listen to me for once. It's just one thing, I don't get why it's so hard for you, I fucking can't."

I gasped quietly at his painful words but, I guess this is what I needed to fix myself.

I stood up, trembling and unhurriedly walked towards the glowing white exit. "I need you to just not talk to them." I heard brain say. I stopped for a few seconds and then continued walking into the glowing exit to see Life standing beside, leaning on the wall with his head down.

"Do you.. hate me?" He asked in a sorrowful voice, which made my uncried tears slide down my cheeks. I placed my hand on his shoulder, "I love you, but-"