One day at a time.

month 8 . . .

This morning felt a little strange. 

I really wasn't sure what it was about today but something felt off.

But who was I to say my feeling was right, Nothing felt right ever since this 8th month hit. 

I know time is ticking down but damn. 

Sev took the boys out for a little boys day out. 

Then I was left at home by myself. 

Not really worried.

It was finally quiet. 

I just took the time to really straighten up and clean while they were gone. 

Felt like I was moving a tad bit slower than normal today as well. 

"Fuck what are you doing Nalo????" I look down at my stomach and stand still. 

She kept moving around. 

And she would not. 

Sit.

Still. 

At.

All.

The kicking got worse. 

I took my ass straight to the living room and sat down. 

Thank God I got most of the house together. 

That really made me feel better.

It smelled better. 

It didn't smell like boys and sweat. 

I'm so grateful we were having a girl. 

I couldn't take the boy mom life anymore. 

I sit down and look at my phone. 

Didn't even realize Sev called me 10 times. 

I call him back and look at the camera. 

I was so drained.

"Hey mama" He answered as he looks at the camera. 

"Hey my love" I smile and look at him. 

"Whatchu doing???" He asks. 

"Nothin baby, I just got done cleaning... And Nalo wouldn't sit still so I just sat down to take a break" I look at him tiringly. 

"Ma.. Stop cleaning stuff and lay down" He says. 

"I mean someone gotta do it because you don't do it right" I laugh a little and lay my head back on the pillow. 

"Mmcht mamas you kno I try" He chuckles. 

"I know baby... Where are yall???" I ask as I look at the background. 

"Uhhhh..." Sev lowers the camera. 

"Seven don't fucking play with me. Where you got my kids at???" I ask irritatingly. 

"HI MOMMY!!" Zeph yells. 

"MOMMY WE AT HOOTERS!!" Kai yells. 

"Seven." I death stare him. 

"Yes ma'am??..." He says nervously as his face turns pale. 

"Why the fuck are you and our children at hooters where bitches got they ass hanging out n shit???" I ask. 

"Ma it was just-" I hang up before he could even finish. 

I was not tryna hear that bullshit.