Consider my feelings

Chapter 17

Haruka's pov

Day one of finding out what's distracting Koku!

I tiptoe or rather run to the living room, it was early in the morning and since Koku is napping in his room I will not! Surely, not disturb him at all! I smiled, jumping from one cushion to the other. I had taken those cushion from the sofa and placed it on the ground, the thumping of the noise did not wake up Koku.

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I was giggling while getting a light scolding. "Haruka...you're an imbecile child," Koku couldn't scold me more than he want to because he knows I may or may not tell to Daddy. I looked up at him, "Koku, uppies!" I had my arms out. Once I was held up and sat on his left arm giving him a bear bug around his neck, saying "I love you" Smiling brightly looking at him.

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"...?"

Waited... I waited for Koku to say something back.

"..."

"Koku..?"

I look at him, confused and uncertainties on his face. "Koku..?" Why wasn't he saying anything? Did I tell something wrong? Daddy always says, telling someone you love is a good and positive way but, did Koku not like it?

"Me too...kid, me too" Koku gave a sigh that I wasn't sure if it was a good or bad one but his hand push my head, pressing my face on his neck and giving me a hug. This hug felt different, it was like...a hug that he really needs, that he really deserves and that he is desperate for any affections.

Did Koku never receive affections?

Than I will be the one giving him lots and lots of affections and love just like Daddy did to me. I smiled happily, hugging Koku tightly. "Koku... you're the best but not best than Daddy!"

I heard a low laugh that was immediately held back, looking at him. I laughed, "What was that??" Koku smiled when I questioned his laugh and chuckle a little. "Nothing kiddo...nothing"

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Kokushibo's pov

After the little moment we had, Haruka went outside to play. I was still quite puzzled by what she said to me. She said she loves me? Can I believe that? It's so strange really, having someone else to ever tell that to me especially when I look....hideous. I sighed, my thumb and middle-finger rubbing my temples. Looking out the window, the snow still falls and Christmas is close.

I still want to know why, why did Lord Muzan felt so enhance on leaning close to me. Why did I not stop? Why did... I want to have his lips pressed against mine? It's funny, really...

And now I just crave for him. Crave for his touch, his lips, anything that belongs to him and I just don't know why am I behaving like this. Then, there is this memories that seems so forgotten I can't even tell if it's just a memory or a genjutsu because whatever it is trying to do it seems like, it is trying to tell me something.

Here, I thought I had been in a deep thought for a few minutes but it seems I was in a deep thought for an hour or so. Haruka, jumped on my back when I didn't respond to her. I glance to my back to see her, asking "What is it..?" Haruka looked at me and pouted annoyingly. "I have been calling and calling you! You didn't answer, I thought you were sleeping with your eyes open!!" I chuckled softly, sleeping with my eyes open? That's something....

I set her on my folded legs and looked at her. I don't know why but I feel so peace with her just like I do with My Lord, it's like I want to let down my gaurd around her, want to cherish her but I know I cannot even if I want to or even if whatever this feeling I'm having wants me to.

I noticed a small hand waving at me, "There you go! Going off to deep thoughts again.." And she is annoyed once more. I picked her up high in the air her giggles and the way she spread out her arms and legs like she is flying, it was nice to see. I brought her near me pressing my lips on her forehead, I don't know...I just don't know why but I want to look after her as a daughter of my own.

Will Lord Muzan even liked that?