Waves Of Despair (MuiTan - TanMui)

Chapter Eleven - It's All Your Fault

So sorry for the unexpected break again! Will upload a chapter for my second book tomorrow, I promise!!

Muichiro's pov

Two weeks had passed and me and Nezuko stopped talking that much. She still tried to talk to me from time to time but I didn't respond to her. It was the fear of somehow showing her the horrible side of weight loss.. little did I know that day would happen..

I was sitting in the locker room like always, waiting for Tanjiro. I was excited to see him today. Yesterday we had a really fun time talking, he helped me get my mind off of stuff and I wanted that again.

Suddenly Tanjiro walked in with an angry look at his face. I smiled a little and greeted him but didn't get a response back, he just looked at me and aggressively opened his locker.

I frowned, not knowing what's wrong so I asked and he just.. snapped.

“Did you tell Nezuko about all that weight loss shit?”

His tone was filled with anger, his eyes wide with aggression. My eyes widened and I shook my head slowly “w-what..? O-Of course not, why are you asking..?” I mumbled quietly, starting to worry.

Tanjiro pushed me against a locker, slamming his hand right next to my head, yelling out “don't fucking lie to me, you two have been talking a lot lately and until she met you she wasn't obsessed over all that shit!!”

My eyes filled up with tears, being completely speechless, just shaking my head.

“She hasn't eaten in days! DAYS!! She lost so many kilogrammes in only two fucking weeks! Purging! Laxatives! Calories! She didn't give a damn about that shit before so don't fucking lie to me! I know you told her something!”

I began to sob, covering my mouth with my hands, feeling absolutely horrible for Nezuko and feeling horribly guilty. I knew that I was trying my best to keep her out of that stuff but.. I guess that wasn't enough.

“I can't deal with this, Muichiro. My sister is more important to me, and I am not talking to anyone who made her do this” he shoved his jacket into his locker and walked away.

I slid down to the ground, starting to sob uncontrollably. I couldn't believe this was happening, I couldn't believe that I just lost him, I didn't know what to do, I felt so helpless.

…

I didn't even bother staying at school, I just came back home and immediately went to my room. I slammed the door behind me and couldn't hold it back anymore, I completely broke down.

It's not my fault! It's not my fault, right?! I told her to be careful! I never told her about most of that stuff!

I was sobbing hard into my knees, my whole body was trembling violently, I couldn't catch my breath, I felt like I was gonna pass out.

“I can't lose him! I can't! I can't! Not again!” I thought to myself, feeling myself getting nauseous from the stress, sobbing and ragged breath. I covered my mouth and ran into the bathroom where I threw up.

I grabbed my head into my hands, sobbing hysterically, not even bothering to stay quiet or close the door. I was just so overwhelmed, I never had many friends and the person I thought actually accepted me, I lost.