Entering his washroom, S-coups turns on the shower and steps under it. As the warm water cascaded down his body, he closed his eyes and let the steam envelop him. His mind began to wander and started playing memories from the previous event. He got reminded of your injured hand, how he forcefully kissed you and the way you get frustrated everytime he teases you.
As the memories slowly unfolds, he realizes that it's not just about today's kiss, that is stucked in his mind. But It's yours face that is also haunting him. By closing his eyes he realised,that your features has been etched in his memory like a painting.He could see your shape of your eyes, the curve of your nose, the soft contours of your cheeks through his closed eyes.
As he continued standing there, memories came flooding back of your wedding day , the day when he saw you for the first time. He recalls that day's incident, the way his arms were wrapped around you, holding you close as you trembled with fear and your eyes shut tight.
He recalls the way your skin seemed to glow in the dim light that day when Joshua took you to the basement and forced you to kill their captive.He was back again in that moment, reliving the terror in your eyes, the tremble of your lips and the shiver of your body.
He got reminded of those fiery expressions of yours, of your wedding day, when they accused you of drug smuggling and your teary face in that night club,when you were trapped between the strangers.He got reminded of your shoutings and screamings of that night when he forced himself on you.
S-coups mind got flooded with images of you and he grew frustrated with himself over not being able to control his emotions.He tried to shake off his thoughts of you, by rubbing his face, but it didn't work.
Opening his eyes, he ruffled his fingers through his wet hair, the droplets of water clinging to his lashes dropped down his face like diamonds.
His heart pounded loudly as he struggled to make sense of his conflicting emotions, searching for the reason that had brought him upto this point, the reason that had drawn him to you.
He couldn't understand why he asked Seungkwan to give you food, medicines, and dresses. "Why was he doing all of this for his enemy's daughter.??? He wondered.
As the water kept pouring down on him soothing him down but he still couldn't shake off the feeling that he was betraying his own principles.
"Why was he going out of his way for someone ,whose father had hurt him and his group so deeply? " He rummaged for the answer in his mind.S-coups took a deep breathe as his heart was racing loudly. Somewhere, in his heart he already knew the answer, but his mind wasn't ready to accept it.
He was aware of the truth, but was deliberately ignoring it, driven by his desire for revenge.
He knew that, the answer to all his questions,which he's avoiding holds the power to upend everything.
He knew,the answer to all his questions would mean the end of his relationships with his members.
"No I can't let that happen... I can't let my heart control my mind." He muttered, clenching his fists.
"I can't ruin all my relations just for one girl ." I can never forget his Father killed my parents , Jeonghan's sister and Joshua's parents. He siad,inhaling deeply .
"I can't fall in love with you ,Y/N , Yet I fell in love with you...!!!! "
S-Coups said slamming his fist into the wall in front of him.Thank you~
To be continued~
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My Husbands|| ( Svt ff)Scoups, Jeonghan, Joshua(95 Line)
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