Torturing Tsukasa Tenma Because I Did Not Get His Pandemonium 4*

DAY 7: July 7th

["Turning Eyes to the Trypo-Puppeteer, Waiting For the World to Burn, so—"]

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We decided to go to for a leisurely walk today.

I am actually so fucking tired right now. In fact, as I'm walking, I'm half leaning against Rui, whose arm is wrapped around me.

Emu keeps skipping over the cracks in the sidewalk as she bounces on ahead of us, singing about how you step on a crack and 'break your mothers back' apparently, paired along with if you step on a line then you break your fathers spine.

I have no idea where these rhymes are coming from. Who made these things up, and why? What reason is there to warn a child to not step on a crack in a sidewalk, lest they cause the paralyzation and unfortunate demise of their own parents?

There's gotta be a reason for everything, right? So how come.. actually, no, scratch that. That's a lie. Nothing in this world has ever had any rhyme or reason to any of it. We are all just absolutely insane.

I let out a yawn, rubbing my eyes. I've been feeling so sluggish lately.

"Are you alright, Tsukasa-kun?" Rui asks me, squeezing me lightly. I nod in reply, humming.

"Yeah, I'm fine." I respond. I don't want to cause anyone too much worry. But they already know anyway- the most I can do is pretend things are getting better, or I'm just neutral.

Which.. none of them are true. I am still doing fairly horrible, unfortunately. It's quite the shame.

When we reach the park, we decide to walk through it. Nene implores us to take a small break by the benches, so we do, all of us sitting down on a bench underneath a large tree. Only three of us fit on the bench, though, so Emu sits on the ground, humming as she plays around with the grass.

Does she now know how many bugs are in there..?

Then again, Emu was never afraid of bugs. She's a completely different breed, honestly. I mean that in the nicest way possible, though. She's a feral little child in pink, but I love her. You can't not love a feral little child in pink.

Nene is playing a game on her phone, as per usual. I wish she would get off and actually engage- didn't Rui say that she compared the earth to an 'open-world RPG game' once when they went hiking together?

While Emu is playing with the grass, and Nene is playing games on her phone, Rui is ranting about beehives, and I am trying to listen despite my hatred for any things insects.

He's currently info dumping about.. honeycombs. Honeycombs, and how they're shaped like.. hexagons or whatever. Admittedly, that is the only thing that I know about them.

Yeah, I'm not actually paying attention to anything Rui is saying. I do not want to imagine a bunch of disgusting bees surrounding their beehives and going into their little bee hive cell things to make honey or whatever.

I hate insects.

I shiver at the mere thought of it alone, sighing. I don't know what other topics to switch over to, so I just try to at least pretend to listen in. I hope it's working. I don't know if Rui even cares whether or not anybody is listening, because Nene sure as hell isn't. I'm pretty sure Emu is, and meanwhile I am just.. here, constantly teetering on the edge of life and death.

I think I've given up on trying to distract myself. Nothing works, everything just circles back to those horrible feelings, those painful emotions and gore-filled visions.