Come find me •Lovertation•

𝕮𝖍𝖆𝖕𝖙𝖊𝖗 9

A/N; so that was fun :D you guys get less angst from now on boo hoo. Also, 6 in lovertation? TY

Huge Tw 😍

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Rep's pov:

I moved to my bathroom and leaned against the sink. I opened the bottles, and poured one handful.

Do I really wanna do this...?

I sat there for like 4 minutes deciding, when a knock sounded on my door. I snapped my head towards it and in a panic, swallowed the handful. And another. And another. And another, as quick as I could.

As I was pouring the 6th one, my door literally got knocked down. I swallowed the last handful and sank against my bathtub, hoping anyone who came in would just let me die.

As I sat there, it really began to settle in. I was going to die.

All those memories, gone.

First football win? Gone. First proper birthday party with the team? Gone. Jaxon? I'd never see him again. Lover? Gone.

Oh well, I made this decision, it's my fault.

As much as I had feared dying, I couldn't deny there was some sliver of twisted excitement. I'd never have to deal with shit again! I'm free. I'll be free.

And then, all of that vanished as Jax came into the bathroom. He registered the 3 empty bottles and looked at me in horror.

"Bye, Jax," I smiled at him, and slumped against the bathtub.

"No, no, fuck, what did you take!? Rep, please, no no no no, you don't want to die, I can't let you- rep..." he panicked. He picked me up and knelt me in front of the toilet.

"Throw them up or I make you," he threatened. I raised an eyebrow and shook my head no.

He lunged forward and He stuck like 3 fingers down my throat and my gag reflex was immediately triggered.

I keeled over in front of the toilet and threw up, there was like 20 pills in my puke. I knew I had taken more then that.

"Jax.. what the f-" I started.

"NO! Not, what the fuck, I should be saying that! Throw everything up, Tation, please," he pleaded, his voice cracking.

I sighed and stuck two fingers down my throat, puking out the rest. I sighed and fell against the bathtub.

"Jesus Christ," he said, wiping the tears that had been streaming down his face. He pulled me into him.

"Rep, you... what,. What the fuck was that..?" He asked shakily.

"An attempt? What do you think, Jaxon?" I snapped. I felt him swallow.

"Rep, you can't.. you can't die," he insisted.

"Why not?" I asked dumbfoundedly.

"Cause I fucking love you! What do you mean, why?! You're like my little sister, rep, if I lost you.. I don't... I couldn't.." he yelled desperately.

I looked away.

"I'm sorry," I sighed.

"Don't apologize, just.. don't... don't die, please, please don't die," he begged. I sighed and slumped against him, closing my eyes.

"I probably won't," I said jokingly.

He looked at me. "Not the time for jokes, please," he said.

"Right... yeah..." I mumbled. I felt him release a breathe and slump against the bathtub too.