Secrets of Thieves

chapter 15.

TW- anxiety, panic attacks, murder (not too description)

"No I am not!" He laughs and shakes his head in disbelief.

"You totally are a nerd its not my fault!" I smile looking at him. 

"How am I a nerd then sweetheart?" He smirks tilting his head towards me as our horses trot slowly in the moonlight.

"For starters you've read a million books since I've met you, everytime I see you it's a new book. And not to mention everytime Tommy brings you up he talks about how you are so formal and talk like your out of some classical romance." I laugh swinging my arms around mocking him. 

"I do-" a branch snaps and both of our heads shoot to the right of me. Techno pulls the reins of his horse quickly and walks his horse it in front of me. I turn to look behind me to see if anyone is there but all I see is a pink bush. No one was- wait a pink bush? I pull Buckys reins back and he turns towards the pink. Wait a second, "Niki?" I question.

The pink "bush" jumps up with her hands clasped together and she gives a little wave. "What are you doing here?" I tilt my head and jump off of Bucky. I wobble and my vision gets spots, oh shit I'm going to fall. I try to reach out for Bucky but instead catch a warm arm and a hand slip around my waist. I steady myself as quickly as I can but I just slip further into my faint state. Fuck.

I let out a gasp and shoot up, Im sitting on the floor. My hands are behind me supporting my weight and I look around. No no no! Where am I?

"I cant do this! Please I cant!" I hear my voice shout. 

No, please no I don't want to remember this. 

"You have to. Unless you would rather me kill you." I see him, no I don't want to.  I cant do this. 

I feel a hand on my shoulder and I jump. I spin around trying to stand up but ultimately fail and end up on my hands and knees. I look up and see a green eye and red eye. Ranboo?

"Come on Y/n, if you want to leave you have to lean into it. You cant hide here." He grabs my arm and pulls me up as if I weight nothing. He guides me to where my memory unfolds.

"Please no please really I cant." I'm sobbing, tear marks on my torn up shirt. I remember this and I wish I didn't. I was fifteen...it wasn't my fault...right?

"Do it!" He shoves a dagger in my hand and pushes me roughly. 

"Ranb-" He shakes his head and points. "Please you'll never see me-" He gives me an annoyed look which I wouldn't think would be possible from him. 

I turn my haunted eyes to my body shaking like a leaf as I approach a bush. 

No. Please. 

My past self is shaking and tears are falling from my eyes like I can't remember how to not cry.

I steady the dagger in my hand and sneak up to the girl gathering berries. She shoots up and spares me a smile. Her hazel eyes were so warm, so full of life until the dagger dug into her neck. She choked and clutched her neck her eyes weren't so warm as she stared at me. No smile on her face, no life, because I took it.  I dropped the dagger and clutched my face. Clapping was all that was heard as my past self faded away. 

I slowly turned to Ranboo. Maybe he wont see me for the past monster I was right? But have I really changed? No I haven't and I'm here to steal in his town. Maybe I am the monster, maybe I always will be. 

His tall figure turns to me sharply and I jump back. Its dark, its so dark and cold. He tilts his head and walks closer and I slowly walks backwards. What is he going to do? Does he finally see me as a monster?

I wobble as I feel my boots meet air behind me, I'm on a ledge. I turn back to see darkness. But before I could speak Ranboos arms shoot out and push me into the darkness.

Air is pushing my hair in wild patterns and my arms and limbs are flying in unnatural angles. I cant scream, why should I? 

falling

falling

falling

falling

falling

falling

falling

Air swells in my lungs and I open my eyes and start coughing and gasping for air. I sit up and try to claw my way away from the person crouched in front of me. Am I gone from the memory? Please.

"Y/n! Y/n, please calm down." Technoblade? My vision comes in and out of blurriness. I shake my head and the pounding headache is catching up and I squeeze my eyes shut. A warm hand touches my arm and I don't even have energy to jump away. Another hand goes to the side of my head cupping my head. "Come on breath." I take deep breaths and open my eyes. Technoblade is sitting in front of me with a nervous expression on his face. I look past him and see a glowing red and green eye. No. He knows who I am know.

"EW! You guys are gross!" I rest my head in Technoblades hand and turn to see a Tommy with his arms crossed. 

I turn my attention back to Technoblade and he rolls his eyes making me laugh. "You okay sweetheart?" He asks gently in a hushed tone. I nod and try to smile. "Okay lets get you home."

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