The Maid

The deeper you

Minji's pov:

I finally arrived at home and it's already 8 pm, Maeve was still up. She was watching movies with hanni in the living room.

"Hey baby, it's already 8pm, why aren't you sleeping?"

"Hi mommy!!! I missed you so much, I couldn't sleep and I asked hanni unnie to watch some movies" she said while pouting and I kissed her cheeks

"Oh, okay. Just make sure that after that movie, you'll going to sleep hmm?" I said

"Okiii mommy!" She said and I drop her down

I looked at hanni, but she just look away
immediately and I find it weird? I guess I wasn't just used to that kind of awkwardness.

Hanni's pov:

it's been tough weeks for me lately, I was confused about what I'm feeling. I mean, just kind of feeling odd, or maybe because I just missed the I used to be. Maeve was my constant companion when I'm feeling not well, all of those sadness or even different emotions and circumstances I faced; it was bearable because of her.

Feeling burn out for no specific reasons is something really hard to deal with.
I'm missing my parents so much, my life when I was a kid, or even the school stuffs and my double works are making me tired.

"Unnieee, I'm going to sleep now!! Goodnight! Mommy said you're going to stay with her for tonight byebye! I love you" Maeve kissed leaving her dumbfounded

"Huhh?? Uh- wait maeve!" I called her yet I just sigh in disbelief and nothing to do but just to proceed at the balcony to get some fresh air and to understand this mixed emotions

*Breathes deeply*

"Hi mamm, papss... Wherever you at right now, I'm hoping that you're in the safe place. I missed you both" I said giggling a lil bit while I'm biting my lips to prevent sobbing, yet tears still flowed from my eyes.

"Y'know what, I missed everything. I missed being princess, if only I could get the justice you deserve I would've difinitely fight and investigate for the both of you. Couldn't wish it more, all I wanted was the both you, my constant comfort, the one who always says who's proud of me and a blessing to the both of you. Don't worry paps and mams, I promised to finish my study as your wish for me. I would graduate as an psychologist and hoping to study in law also. I'm fighting for me, for us. I know deep to the both of you that you were there all by my side. I love you both" I said as I last breathe and closed my eyes while cherishing my emotions synchronizing it with the cold breeze here on balcony.

"I'm sure they're proud of you Hanni, I'm proud of you."

I quickly look to where is the voice came from and to my shock...

"You don't have to be afraid to show your vulnerable side Hanni, we all do have. Including me, I might act all dominant but I knew to myself that I had that side of vulnerability. I'm sure they miss you also, and they're proud of you for raising not just an intellectually good daughter, but they have raised someone who chose to chase her dreams instead of giving up and showed determinations with all positivity despite to the situations she had been carrying. You're such a brave person Hanni, and what you feel right now are valid." She finished her sentence while sipping her wine and offer me some.

"M-mrs. Kim??... I'm sorry, I... I just can't handle it anymore at this moment. Couldn't stop it, sorry for the disruption." I said

"No Hanni, you're human and so do I. We have feelings to feel every emotions we wanted to feel. It's even more dangerous if you can't express what you feel, just bottling it all. Let it out." She said while keeping her posture straight, crossing her legs and looking at the city lights.

She onced spoke again...
"You know what's wrong about you? You know what you're feeling, but you tend to repress it; in order to aside what you truly feel. Y'know it's more unmanigable when you let things be on its own, no matter what you do, it will forever hunt you. You don't have to act strong all the time Hanni. Acknowledge what you truly feel. You might find me odd right now since I barely talk a lot and doesn't seem to be that deep typical person you know, but I knew I needed to speak up for you to also realized what you're doing. Remember, what your mind thinks, is what you act upon." She said

I couldn't say more, everything she said has a point and I couldn't even find the right words to say. So, we just stay silent there for a while and continuously drinking the wine she had bought.

"One thing..." She said while giggling

I looked at her for a moment while signalling her that I'm confused

"My dad didn't liked me to be a psychology student, I'm supposed to be one but because of this company and this marriage life. I didn't want this, they set me up for this because of they thought it's practical and was the best for me. But what they did, got me more worse. I didn't know who I am anymore, I didn't even know where I could go, just work and that stupid company. When Maeve came to our life, at first I hated her hahaha funny right? My parents didn't knew that this stupid husband of mine, raped me...." She stopped for a while but I've seen her tears dripping.

"But h-how?" I asked hesitantly

"I told him that I didn't wanted to do activities to him and told him that I'll be divorcing to him right away, yet our parents pushed us to just have our family anyways. They didn't care what we feel, all he did is just tooking advantage of me. When he was drunk, he did it to me. That's when I told it to my mom, and that was also the day I started to get mad of my mom. She was supposed to be my ally because she knew how shit my father is, she couldn't do anything since she knew how capable my father was. She couldn't fight back, she was voiceless when it comes to him. And by the time Maeve was born, I really hated her, I often just go straight to my work and just leaving her with her nanny's. I regret what I did, I realized that I shouldn't do that even if she was so called a made from lust and not love... But as the time passed by, I slowly accepted my date that it is what it is. I've seen myself with my mom, and I knew Maeve didn't deserve that treatment, she is my child and a best friend already. I'm proud to say that she's from me and regret the moments I made her feel she wasn't important. I realized that there's always a room for improvement, not just for yourself but also to the people around you. It's okay to be not okay, but there's always a solution for everything. I'm glad Maeve was there for me, and created for me. I believed in everything happens for a reason and maybe there's the answer to it" she said while smiling in tears.

I couldn't imagine that she went through those process to made her like that, we really can't judge people as to who they are. If they were roots of pain to change them into a different version, they changed not because they want to, but because they needed to. I'm amazed with her more, now that I knew more about Mrs. Kim. She wasn't grumpy all along, she was just hurt. Surprising people can be like this.

And by that, we continuously shared more about ourselves and to the people around us.

She was way different and more deep that what I've expected...