The Maid

Regrets

Danielle's pov:

It's already 9:38 in the evening and everybody was preparing to go to their own shelters. I went straight to my office to get my things and prepare my materials to go exactly straight in home. When I was walking down at the parking lot, I decided to just unwind for a bit here at the back of my trunk. It was peaceful and a moment of silence. Only winds can be heard and the cars that are passing by, the lights of the city and the darkness of each area. Until, I've heard a familiar voice near at the tree and decided to observe it. A lil bit of gossip for today.

"Are you ready for my surprise?" A man asked

"Sure, what is it?" A familiar voice replied

I tried to figure it out who was it, but it was way too dark since it's night and they were under the tree where there's no light above literally bruh... Like, I'm a gossiper who's complaining about this tea right now. But anyway, I tried to listen to it and it's my day off tomorrow so I can go home whenever what time I want.

"Well, I wrote this letter for you hahaha.
I know you weren't that fan of crowd, or even expensive restaurants. So, I decided to just read it here of this dark tree wherein the both of us can only hear. I'll start it" The guy said

He opened a paper, probably that's it. His letter, what a romantic guy lol. Guys in these days were literally jerks, that's why I'm gay lol. Gonna date girls.

He cleared his throa

"Ahem... To start with this, I know the both of us were always busy but we always find ways just to be together at most times. For the past months that I have been courting you, you're one of the worth it and inspiring woman I've ever encounter. My family supports me to whomever I wanted to be with and who I would be together with as long as I'm happy. I always praise you in front of them, telling them how good a person you are, how you make my day good despite of the circumstances I faced. You also encountered my lowest parts, and you were there even though we aren't  still together.

You proved to me that someone will still love me, and capable to accept me to as to who I am. My past mistakes, or even my vulnerable side.
You were there to remind me that it's okay to make mistakes, and do better next time by acknowledging me. I knew how much you weren't expressive because of your aura, yet your actions was more powerful and made me changed into someone who's the person I am now. Everyone was disliking me or the things I have done, but you proved to me how you can understand me. You proved me that I can still be a better person and better version of myself. You changed and inspired me a lot.

Thank you for accepting my goofiness, my weirdest side, my clingiest side and bringing back the old me... My sparks were finally occurring back after it shattered me because of the trauma I had experienced. You don't know how much thankful my family are for bringing me back to as who I am, how I'm thankful for hearing me and believing me even though everyone was saying I was the biggest cheater of em all. Hahaha, funny right?

I only did that since that's the only way I cope with my feelings before. Especially that my ex died. How stone hearted I was during those times, but maybe she brought me to you. To change me, and to let me remind that there's always be times of the lowest wherein you can't even feel like you can do it or like standing up from your own weights... You changed me into someone I cannot imagine I can be. I hope that every celebration, bond, silliness, dinner or whatsoever. You were happy to be with me, so as me to be with you. I've never been this sincere for like 6 years ago. Thank you for everything.

One thing I really want to ask you... It's okay if you are not ready, I'm assuring you that's okay for me and I will wait until you're ready okay??...." The man paused for a bit

I was still looking at them even if it's dark lol. Tea is absolutely sweet here omaygashh. I was touched by the man's messaged and to my soft hearted ass, I was tearing a little bit. Likee?? Gurll?? He changed for the better because her ex died?? And literally people are like calling him cheater without knowing the root of why his doin it?? Likee??? Imma gonna kill who bashed this man!! Anyways! Back to reality. What's the next move lol?

"Are you willing to enter my life of disaster? My life of roller coaster and be with me together?? Like I've said, if you weren't ready, then it's okay to wait for your decision and admire you more. So, Kang Haerin... Will you be my girlfriend?" The man asked

WTF.... DON'T TELL ME?? WAS I HEARING IT RIGHT?? OR MAYBE I'M DEAF???? LET ME BE SURE ABOUT IT.
A LAUGHED APPEARED.

"YOU MADE ME CRY JAY PARK!! I HATE YOU HAHAHAHA, OF COURSEE DUMMY!! YOU CAN HAVE ME!! YESSSS!!" The female yell

"WOHOOOO!! I LOVE YOU KANG HAERIN!!! I PROMISE TO DO BETTER AND BE FOREVER WITH YOU!!" The guy responded

The guy hugged the girl and lifted it in the air while she was laughing, going near to the street light. Confirming that it was really Kang Haerin And Jay Park....

"Yahh!! Put me down HAHAHAH Jay Park!!!" Haerin said

"Nooooo!!" Jay said while laughing hysterically

They tickled each other and doing some silly stuff. As if they could handle each other's presence and childish sides. I've never seen Haerin sides of this, seeing her pure and happy. I felt defeated. Raising the white flag lol haha.

It hurts more when you saw it by your own naked eyes. Seeing him making Haerin laugh.

"Fuck what I've said... Maybe Minji was right. I am a coward loser hahaha" I said to myself

I didn't know what to feel, I was just looking at them there at the trunk seeing them all happily while letting myself drown, broken into pieces.

I knew this would come, I really thought those sleepiness nights, those prayers I have always do and the secret letter I put on her desk will work. Maybe, I was right all along. Maybe, she hasn't viewed and care to me at all. Who am I to her life right?

Yeah, a boss...

"Maybe this is the very end Haerin, after years. I think I need to let you go, for me to be able to fix myself. I have ruined everything because of this stupid romantic delusional feelings... I should've been your maid of honor, you once told me. What did I do? I broke it because I fell for you."

I can't handle more and hop in right away to my car, not caring more as my tears were streaming off my eyes. Can't believed how happy they were, and I can't distrupt their lives more cause they were happier together. For years I've been admiring her, if that's whats makes here happy then... I'll take it.
You're the only exception Haerin.
I would rather hurt myself for seeing you more happy with others. I hope he treats you right.