The Masters Mistress

9. Don't break focus.

 All because you touched yourself. Yet again, a thought comes to mind, 'I will just finger myself when I get to my room'. But then that's going against his wishes. You get dressed in silence. you're still pissed off at him. Before you leave, however,  "sir?" You stop near the dining table next to the kitchen area, he's making a smoothie, he smiles when you speak to him, "yes princess?"

"I wanted to apologise for earlier, I know it wont mean your going to change your mind and fuck me, but I forgot that you had said that last night.  Would I be correct in thinking that, should I go to my room now and play with myself, you would be upset?" He sits at the table and ask you to sit too. "If you remember I also said you are unattached, this means you are free to do as you want. If you choose to cum by your own means that's your choice. If you were mines and you were denied your fun and then did it behind my back that would not be ok. Do you understand?"  You nod, "yes sir, I understand. I have another question. If that's ok?" He gets up and comes to sit next to you. "you say that I'm unattached and that you can't be mad at me as I'm not yours. What if I decide not to be yours at this time, and go with some one else. What if I'm not ready to be with you in the ways you need?" You had thought about this while getting dressed, maybe your too new to fully be what he needs. 

"well, look at us, talking stuff out, this is why I believe I would be the best fit for you. Your new and I want to teach you, yes I was a little hot back there," he waves towards the bedroom, "but I want to be the one to show you. I want to be the one that brings you all your climaxes, I want to see you smile, hear you laugh and be the one that makes you happy. I want to be there when you have a shitty day at work. I also want  you to be the one to make me happy, to help me blow off steam after a challenging schedule" he holds your face in his hand, " but I also know it needs to be your choice." you sigh and lean into his touch. "master, I want those things too, I think. You wont be mad that I take the week to figure it out, what if I'm in the shower and the water feels good and I let out a little tension?" you smile up at him and he laughs, "this week, is your week. If you hook up with someone then I cant say anything, you don't belong to me. Not yet. but if you did that when your mines, then that would be the end of our time, Its my hard limit" 

"ok, one last thing, and I will leave. Can I call you and ask questions, I don't have anyone else to talk to, I don't know any other subs and I wouldn't talk to my friend about you!" 

He gives you his number and says ok, but only questions about the arrangement, expectations and such. He wont be telling you about his day or what he ate. Its not that kind of set up, yet. Meaning, he doesn't trust you yet because there's no contract. which is understandable. There's a lot to think about. Getting up from the table, you thank him and walk towards the suit door, "princess" you can feel the need in his voice, he's right behind you, his hand catching your elbow, spinning you round "before you leave, i want to give you something" he holds your face in his hands and kisses you. "now, go before I do something out of contract" 

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In your room, you flop down onto the bed, you discarded the dress and mask in the sitting room. What even is your life. You lay there thinking about how you got to this stage. This time last year, you were dating Eun, you worked in an office and seemed happy. Now almost 6 months has passed, you dumped your boyfriend, moved to a new temporary job, found out about kinks, multiflavoured sex, tried  some of it, fuck, you have a friend, well acquaintance that is part of a famous boy band and have just spent the night with another of the group who turns out to be a Dom who wants to control your orgasms. On top of all that, you sex guru is somewhere in the same hotel, along with the first member. And you cant talk to any of them about any of it because of the rules and paper work you signed last night. taking the pillow from beside you, you scream into it. 

Tae did say you could text him if you had questions but its only been 30 mins since you left his suit, there's no way you can call him so soon. 

For the first time today you look at your phone. There's a text from Iseul, your flatmate and friend. She was out with her work team and its the first time you haven't been around for late night snacks since you took this new contract. Shit yeah, you have a new job to prepare for too. You call her and when she doesn't pick up your glad. Leaving a voice message you tell her that she should drink plenty of water, find some food to eat and take the rest of the weekend to relax. That you will be back soon, "I cant wait to be your flatmate again." you tell her your settling in to the air bnb and will call her later. Of course that's not true, your air bnb is an hours drive away and your not due to be there until tomorrow. Keeping this new part of your life away from Iseul is getting on your nerves. But there's no way she would survive if you told her. "yeah so you know I dumped him, I started expanding my sex life, I've been tied up, blindfolded and fucked for days straight and all for the fun of it, oh by the way, I've slept with Jungkook of bts and we are kind of friends now, add in i was just screwed by his brothers monster dick too while trying to decide if i want him to be my dom. yeah, she would lay down nicely and let death come for her. 

Now your belly rumbles and you never miss a meal. Calling down to room service seems like the best move, last night everyone had on masks but in the fresh light of day, there's no anonymity and no cover. What if worm dick is downstairs, he will defiantly recognise you, please there's Jk and Theo a solo feast in your room is the only way forward. 

Once you have eaten and had a power nap, you open your emails. There's a new one from Tae, all the info you will need to be his sub, but you cant face it right now. Making the decision, you call the air bnb, asking if your flat is ready today. Luckily it is. You send some texts.

"hey Theo, I had fun last night. I guess from here on out, its just wellbeing check ins. Hope you had fun too. Stay safe. remember to stretch hahah"

"hey Bugs, i hope you find what ever it is you re looking for. Maybe if I settle with someone from last night I will ask if subs can hang out or something. There's a lot to consider.  If things get too crazy, please reach out. if not to me then your friends and brothers. There's a lot of love for you out there. don't be scared to look for it."

"sir, thank you for the information packet, i will be sure to read it over. See you regardless on Friday. If you change your mind or get a better off please also let me know."

Needing some alone time, you pack up and head to the station.