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Realization

A/N: Autumn and winter are not together. This takes place in the episode where Reece asks out Marjorie. Also slight Trigger Warning-internalized homophobia

Paring- Autumn x Marjorie

Autumn's POV

I was trying to get some work done when I heard talking in the hallway outside the door. It took me a second to realize it was Marjorie and my brother (Reece). I rolled my eyes hearing him flirt with her and her encouraging it. It was annoying to listen to, but somewhere deep in my heart, there was something else. And I couldn't quite figure out what it was. What I did know is I wanted him to stop. I pushed it out of my head and tried to ignore it as I returned to work. Finally, I heard Reece say he had to get to his nursery and left. Marjorie comes in with hearts in her eyes and the biggest simile I've seen on her in a while, and it makes my heart swell cause she looks so beautiful when she similes. But then I remembered she looked like this because of my brother and I got that feeling again, and it hit me the feeling is jealousy. But that's ridiculous why would I be jealous? Could I, no because that means I would like Marjorie and that can't be. As I am having this mini break down I realize Marjorie is trying to get my attention. 

"Autumn you alright?" says asks concerned. 

"of course, I'm alright Marjorie why wouldn't I be" I scramble out as I feel my face heating up. I need to get it together so I quickly turn back to my computer and ask "Was that my brother I heard outside?"

"It was he was dropping off Carly and came in to say hi to me," she said with a little smirk, that I could see out of the corner of my eye, but it faded quickly before she started again "Hey autumn I know you don't like talking about emotions especially your own but would you be ok if I went on a date with your brother?"

And in that moment I realized I didn't just like Marjorie or have a crush on her I was in love with her cause, It felt like someone was ripping my heart in half just thinking about them together. I didn't know what to say. I wanted to say "No I would not be okay with that because the thought of you going out with him feels like someone is stabbing me in the chest".  But I can't say that so instead I say "Marjorie you are a grown woman you don't need my permission" without even looking her in her eyes cause if I do I might say something I shouldn't. 

"I know I am but you are my best friend and he is your brother I won't go out with him unless you are ok with it" she explains tilting her head to the side trying to get me to make eye contact with her which I refuse to do. I instead just calmly stand up and walk to the door stopping before opening the door and saying "Marjorie do what makes you happy and if that is going out with my brother then don't let me stop you" and I walk out and quickly go to the bathroom to splash so water on my face trying to get my shit together. But then I heard Marjorie asking Carly in the hallway if she knew where I was and of course, she pointed Marjorie toward the bathroom. I ran into a stall even though I knew it wouldn't matter she knew I was in there.

"Autumn you in here?" she asked as she walked into the room. I didn't say anything hoping that if I stayed silent she would just leave but I knew Marjorie she wasn't going anywhere. I heard her speak again "Why did you walk out like that?". She now sounded like she was right on the other side of the stall door "And why are you hiding from me. This is not like you my love" When I heard her say this it made me think to myself. This isn't like me I don't get jealous I don't stop myself from saying what is on my mind and I definitely don't run away, but this is Marjorie if I say what I want to say she won't go out with him and I can't be the reason she isn't happy because I love her. I can't make her happy but maybe he can so I have to get over this feeling and let her go. I open the door separating us and she is standing right in front of me I finally look her in the eye and all I can see starting back at me is concern. I can't do this. I can't talk to her right now, but as I try and move past her she blocks me and continues.