The Royals: A Kings Heart

Chapter 30

SASA'S POV_

Amahle and I sat in silence for a bit. I'd helped her change her pillow and sheets but now we just sat.

Me: "I'm going to need you to explain it Amahle. I was with you basically the whole day after you came home from school. You haven't left my sight at all. How is it then, you...were dying? I thought this happened when you overdosed." She stared at her hands quietly. "Amahle, you aren't killing yourself, are you?" A slow tear rolled down her cheek.

Ama: "I was scared. I would have dreams of people I don't know, telling me to tell my father messages. I would tell him but he brushed me off all the time. The people in the dreams got angrier. It got to a point my father sent me to boarding school. I couldn't sleep. I'd have painful nightmares. I then started to cut myself. At first I just wanted to feel something. Anything. I didn't have anyone. Everyone thought I was the weirdo. My family just pushed me aside. The twins are unbearable. They are different from us, Nkosi and I. They don't have our abilities and for the longest time , we weren't known to have any either. They tormented me, calling me the alien child. It got really bad. I just didn't want to be alive anymore. So when I went home, during holidays, I did it. In my room. I overdosed on pills. I died. For hours, I lay dead in my room. Nkosi was who found me. I woke up in his arms. We both didn't understand why and so we kept it a secret. Between us. He made me promise I'd never do it again. I didn't. The dreams stopped, the nightmares. Finally. But...this started. He didn't believe that I didn't try again. He didn't believe that I was not doing it to myself. That's why our relationship fell off. He doesn't trust me because he thinks I lied to him and I keep trying to kill myself. I've only tried once. It's the ancestors who keep punishing me for that one attempt. You're the first person it's ever happened in front of. They usually attack me when I'm alone." Oh My God.

Me: "So your ancestors make you relive your death over and over again? As a punishment?"

Ama: "Yes."

Me: "This is shocking. I am dizzy with shock. Have you tried to talk to them? This is a stupid question, I'm sorry."

Ama: "It's not stupid. I can't. They aren't appearing to me anymore."

Me: "Is your seeing gift, related to you dying? For example it stopped today, then this happened. Do you think you have to die for you to see again?"

Ama: "I don't think, I know I do. It will return when I awake."

Me: "So what must happen Amahle? I must just watch you die?"

Ama: "You can move in with Petu. I'll be okay."

Me: "I'm not going anywhere Amahle."

Ama: "I can't expect you to guide me into my death Thembisa. That's traumatizing."

Me: "I won't guide you into anything, I'll just be on standby. Do you wake up on your own or?"

Ama: "I wake up when I'm done, yes."

Me: "Okay. I'll just be here. Help with the clean up and get you some water. You must be dehydrated." I gave her a bottle.

Ama: "Thanks."

Me: "So, now we wait?"

Ama: "Not long." She lay back on her bed, closing her eyes. I resisted the urge to wipe her nose from the blood. I sat on my bed, unsure what to do while I waited for my friend to die.

KHAYA's POV_

My body felt warm, making it difficult for me to want to wake up. I was honestly enjoying this comfort. Before I opened my eyes I could hear hushed tones speaking and possibly angry at each other. I could recognize both voices. Zwe and Sboni. What was going on? My body felt so heavy.