The Royals: A Kings Heart

Chapter 44

One Week Later.

SASA'S POV_

This week was probably the hardest in my life. It was one thing not being able to speak to him while I was in eMthinomkhulu but I had the hope I'd come here to Mountain Peak and make things right. I had the hope that we'd be together, live together and just shut everything else out. I haven't had the heart to unpack my things or attend school. I needed to get myself together. It was a Sunday. I needed a shower, my hair washed and set up my schooling system for tomorrow. I got out of bed. Amahle was awake as well.

Me: "Morning."

Ama: "Hello." I took my things to go shower. When I looked in the mirror, my eyes were fully swollen and red, I expected that. I looked horrible. Not that it mattered because no one would see me anyway. I took my shower, also washing my hair. I went to the bedroom to dress in leggings and a crop top. I changed my bedding, putting in clean sheets duvet and pillow. I bundled up my laundry and put it aside then placed my laptop and school system on my desk. I made a cup of coffee and sat in my desk checking my emails. I had a number of them including two from the HOD enquiring about my attendance. I'd missed a full week and no one could get hold of me. I didn't have an excuse but made something up. I'd received my assignments and I also had a test this week but I had to attend unfortunately. I couldn't write it online. It was on Tuesday. I wrote down the date. I had to study starting from right now.

Ama: "Would you like to get something to eat?" I'd been living on one sandwich a day and been absolutely fine.

Me: "I don't feel like going out."

Ama: "Should I order something?"

Me: "Yes."

Ama: "Are you ready to see Petu and Notha?"

Me: "Sure." The embarrassment of being dumped felt like nothing compared to the heartbreak. I needed headache pills. My backpack was under my desk, I reached down checking for the bottle of pain killers. I took two and continued to sort through my work.

Ama: "Sasa."

Me: "Amahle."

Ama: "I'm sorry."

Me: "It's fine Amahle. I'm moving on." My phone rang. The caller ID showed my father. I answered.

Me: "Hello."

Xolani: "Hello Thembisa. How are you?"

Me: "I'm fine Tata."

Xolani: "Okay. You're still upset?"

Me: "I'm trying to study I have a test on Tuesday Tata."

Xolani: "I never wanted this to happen to us."

Me: "Well it did Tata. I chose you. Unfortunately, that is something that has really hurt me beyond belief. I can't just be okay. I'm going to need my space now."

Xolani: "Okay. I'm sorry."

Me: "Goodbye Tata." I hung up.

Ama: "You shouldn't be so hard on him."

Me: "Amahle, I'm trying. I'm trying the best I can to process the pain I'm in, I cannot for the life of me accommodate other people's feelings and trauma. He had a variety of options of how and when to talk to me about what he went through instead, he chose to hurt me. Violently. I can't. No."

Ama: "I understand." My phone rang again and I was about to switch it off before realising it's Khaya.

Me: "Hello."

Khaya: "Finally. I've been calling all week. Why aren't you taking my calls? Are you with him?" He whispered.

Me: "Why are you whispering? No I'm not with him."