The Royals: A Kings Heart

Chapter 102

SASA'S POV_

Out of all the people, he shows up? This is not my conversation or journey so perhaps I should head out.

Me: "Your Majesty, it is an honour to be in your presence."

Ngidumise: "Yet, you want to leave." Shit, he had the ability to read minds like Nkosi. I swallowed the saliva in my mouth. He didn't remove his eyes from me once. If there was a competition of who I feared the most between the two, shut those thoughts down instantly. I looked at King Sizwe.

Me: "See I didn't lie?" He stared at me sarcastically.

Sizwe: "Is this my mother?" Can't do anything nice for human beings, I guess.

Me: "Your Majesty, King Ngidumise, I thought we'd be visited by Mam Nonkosi. Is there a message you have for us?"

Ngidumise: "No." I shivered. Why do I always have to be in awkward situations? I looked at King Sizwe to say something but all he did was stare at his father. I don't know anymore. "How are you scared of me and not of your husband? He's my photocopy."

Me: "He's a bit different."

Ngidumise: "Good, you mean?" I nodded my head, holding my breath. His demeanor was the same, creepily so. He was just a bit older. "Well, he is me." Finally he looked at his son. "You look well, Sizwengaye."

Sizwe: "I am well, father."

Ngidumise: "Do you have anything you want to ask me?"

Sizwe: "No father." I stared at him. Are you serious? You won't ask him why he lied to you about your mother and hid her existence? You're not going to ask why you don't have brothers? Not even why he never once told you he loves you? The reason you were raised to be so cold and unforgiving? Are you serious?? Kanti why are we here?

Ngidumise: "You seem to be more prepared for me than he is." Oh damn it!

Me: "I just think it's very upsetting, my King. I'm now his target because he doesn't have information that I believe he should've received in his youth. With all due respect to you, Your Majesty. This was a dangerous game that almost cost me my life."

Ngidumise: "It's not a secret that I was not a good man. I raised you to be unfeeling because I knew how much hurt you could experience when your world dies in your arms. I never wanted you to ever feel that. It did make me weak but only because I lost it. The truth is that it was her love that made me strong. When she died, I became bitter with rage. I am sorry, my son."

Sizwe: "What are you saying?"

Ngidumise: "I am saying that I was wrong in not showing you love. I was wrong in raising you to be so cold. I regretted it even before I left this earth. I didn't think I should apologize before my death. Instead, I thought having my spirit grow in Nkosinhle would right my wrongs."

Sizwe: "So you decided to put your soul into my child against my will?"

Ngidumise: "Nkosinhle is his own soul. He only has my spirit."

Sizwe: "Why did you burn down that village, father?"

Ngidumise: "I didn't want you to find it."

Sizwe: "You didn't want me to find my mother's roots? You didn't want me to experience just even a grain of her love?" He stood up. "I wondered for all my life, if you hated me. I just realized, you actually did. You resented me with all of your being. You wish I'd died instead of her."

Ngidumise: "That's not true."

Sizwe: "How is it not? I can assure you the only reason I stayed alive was because I was your first heir to the throne. Nothing else. Do you even remember the first words you spoke to me? I'll remind you. You said to me 'your mothers last words before she died while you were in her arms were, You can't kill a king. But that doesn't mean He can't be killed.' Do you know that's all I knew about my mother until this child came along? You call that love? Now that she's suddenly here, I must embrace her. WITH WHAT!!! What did you equip me with to show her that I appreciate her for just this small window of what it felt like to be close to her?? No, tell me because I only know what you taught me. You taught me how to be King. How to rule. How to show no mercy. No kindness. You taught me how to be a man. Yet today, I'm battling with strange feelings I cannot explain and all you can say is sorry?" He walked out the hut.