【Red Ink || ATEEZ OT8】

Can You Keep A Secret? | CHAP 12

TW: This chapter is just violent :(


This was the start of a very twisted dance, as the blood drips on my very alive body, the screaming forever the song playing the song that i as the room went quiet, but yet, this rush, this thrill pumped my heart even more, my sick heart.. was when i looked at my blood-stained hands from all the blood that rained on me, i felt indifferent? 

"Dr Choi? are you scared?" Mingi's voice as dark as ever, as stern and strong, when i lifted my eyes to meet his gaze, i no longer felt human in the presence. 

"No, i want to be enlightened." Maybe a wrong choice of words, but i felt different.

This craving of seeing people be put death wasn't what i was looking for, but, i was curious on why they tortured people here, but.. weird thing i wasn't scared, i didn't feel sick.. hell.. i didn't feel empathy for the cannibals that were above my head. 

Mingi smiled, and walked over to me, "I knew you were just special." his eyes was dark.

He smiled, and then he walked over towards and grabbed my shoulder, and we slowly started walking, "This is what we call the basement Dr Choi, yknow- most hospitals have lab rats, or some type of animal, but, since our patients aren't human, we do things a different way.." 

There was another rusty door, the smell that extended was more putrid than what was in this exact rotten. 

And the sight that was in front of me was more horrid that was here in, and the man in the middle was not who i was expecting it to be.

It was a room full of dead corpses, they didn't even look human, their skin was black, their teeth rotten, they were very skinny, 

In this moment i felt sick, i felt so sick, the twisting in my stomach, was gurling, tight and unbearable. 

San was wearing pulling the bodies into what i could make it out to be, a crematorium, he pulled one of the bodies in there, and the bright flames lit up in my eyes. 

I could almost feel their agony, i no longer wanted to be here. 

San then made eye-contact with me, he looked almost sad, he never had the dark look that Mingi had, San's eyes had emotion, and Mingi's never did, no matter how 'happy' he seemed. 

I guess we were staring for a bit too long for Mingi's liking, and he quietly ushered me out, "Perhaps, you weren't quite as accepting as i thought you were, too bad Hongjoong won't see you then." 

The last sentence was just full of a tone that was harsh, this man knew how to get unders people skin, and that was hard part, he knew exactly what to say just to keep me at his will. 

"What are you-" 

I was cut off by a loud chuckle, "Do you really think Hongjoong would go without punishment? he attacked you, and we can't have that, they must be tamed." He looked into my eyes, serious, and monotone. 

I hated his wording, he was talking about MY patient like a goddamn dog, in fact, he's been talking about this operation like they were animals. 

But, i needed this job, and there was something keeping me here, even if i begged, something was tieing me here. 

I suppose the energy that entered my life, had a hold on me, i couldn't tell whether if i was terrified or insanely intrigued by it. 

"What about talking? punishment? Hongjoong?" I was nervous, i no longer felt safe by Mingi in any terms

"Well, what if i show you? perhaps that will answer your question? or wait.. you aren't ready"

"Wait! i am- i'm just- i wasn't expecting this-" 

I wasn't ready to accept that doctors torture people here, i mean who was, except mad-men, and im starting to realize how insane he actually was. 

To know, just a feet below the lab, are  where people spend their dying wishes of freedom, as they chewed and bite into one another for the sake of survival, it was disgusting. 

Mingi stared at me, observing my eyes, maybe taking in my body language? it was hard reading a man that displayed no emotions for others to know what he was thinking in this moment.

"Then follow me." 

Those words i seemed to started to hate with my whole being, those words never brought me any good. 

The walk was quiet, after a few turns and twist, i had no idea where we were at, what hallway, what section, i started feeling lost even with Mingi guiding me. This ever expanding maze.

After a bit, we stopped at another door, i was started to hate doors, or actually doors that Mingi lead me too, as i knew they weren't going to be good.

"Dr Choi, i need you to be completely calm." his words kept repeating in my mind, i was thinking of what horrors could behind this door. I took a deep breath in and out, and i nodded. 

He just one of those ironic smirks .

When he  opened the door, there was a lab, it was dark, it looked like a operation room, as we moved closer, it was a operation room. 

He then guided to be observer's room, usually these rooms were made for medical students, but of course, medical students were never here. 

There was few other doctors here, which made me scared, they all were whispering things, and i had no idea what to expect..

Untill..

They rolled out Hongjoong in his hospital bed, he was struggling, he tightly chained to the bed, my heart was breaking at the sight. I could see tears running down his face, he already looked beaten up, both of eyes were swollen and black.

And there was deep cuts on his arms, and his own blood staining his hospital gown. I could hear his cries, he didn't deserve this, no one did. 

Then, i heard small giggling and chuckling from other doctors beside, as they got sadistic amusement from his deep torture, i could see Mingi smiling, but he wasn't looking at Hongjoong, he was looking at me. 

I then saw something shiny that glimmered in the dim light in the operation room. 

It was water.. shining, moving in waves, as the person that was holding came to view. A cloaked figure. 

I could the see the piercing brown eyes though, they looked intense, chaotic, like a storm. 

I could see them swirling with resentment and anger, and as i looked down below the intense glare, i could see Hongjoong's eyes, wide, with fright, he looked like a scared child in the moment, stripped of nothing as if he was. 

Tears kept flowing, and slowly began the dripping of water from the holder with the such very intense eyes. 

He jolted and spasmed at the touch of the aqua, he had a cloth in his mouth, but i could still hear his muffled begs and screams. 

This was too much, this was far too intense. 

But i couldn't do anything, but watch, my body and mind wouldn't let me do anything else, I stared at him closely i could feel my own tears beginning to form. 

Then, i guess they weren't amused enough with his cries, as then the holder poured the whole bucket on water onto him. 

I will never forget the screams that was his produced from his hellish vocal cords, so loud, so agonizing, so hurtful. 

His whole body was jolting and violently moving, the doctors beside me were laughing and pointing at him like some circus animal. 

This whole thing was just sickening, i'm surprised that i haven't puked up yet. 

The holder kept pouring water on him, i could see his skin burning, That was it, my eyes were swelling, tears following, i felt so bad, so fucking bad. 

And i couldn't do anything, he was my patient, yet, i'm seeing his pain right in front of me. 

Mingi just chuckled, i guess i was giving him the reaction he wanted, he was just 'happy' watching me, 

More tears fell from my eyes the more Hongjoong screamed i could hear him begging for mercy, my heart was beyond shattered, my fucking mind and soul was shattering. 

I was shaking, thats when i saw the sharp knife, in the clothed figure hand, and i'll never forget the look on Hongjoong's face. 

The knife went deep and twisted in his ribcage, i couldn't take this anymore. 

"M-mingi m-make them stop!" I twisted my head in his direction, he seemed to enjoy this. 

"And what if i don't?" He leaned closer and whispered. 

I couldn't respond verbally, but with a cry, as stupid and silly it was. 

Mingi sighed, "David stop," He said into the wall, assuming there was a speaker there. 

David stopped. The doctors beside us groaned and sighed, as it was stopped at the most exciting part.

"Take him to Dr San Choi, David."

The relief that i felt in my system was immense, tears were falling out of my eyes, i was feeling so much anxiety, it was hard to describe. 

As i stood up to leave, Mingi grabbed my sleeve, "Yknow you look so beautiful when you cry." 

I felt disgusted so i ripped away from his grip. 

I had no idea where i was in the lab, and Mingi seemed to understand the moment that thought flickered in my head.

"Need some help to find where the lab is at?" He chuckled. 

I sighed, but unexpectedly, Mingi wrapped his arm around me and escorted me out. 

"Yknow, you must be thankful, i usually don't listen to others, but seeing those teary eyes made me feel bad."

I was slient, i hated this, he felt disgusting, i felt disgusting. 

"One thing, can you keep a secret?" 

I sighed, "Y-yes..' 

Mingi stopped walking, i guess he noticed my sad tone in my voice "why are you freaking out so bad? you think im going to hurt you like that?" 

My eyes started to tear up again, just thinking about it, suffering like that, it was so gross, i couldn't even think of what the pain feels like. 

Mingi chuckled, i see he finds joy out of peoples emotions clear as day, "Oh come on, you are far too interesting for that, your different." 

I just glared at him. 

"Oh come on, i saw your eyes wide as a kid in a candy store in the basement what's different now? is it because it was Hongjoong?" 

He hit a soft spot, that i didn't know i had, i was now mad at him, i hated his tone of voice, the way he spoke of people like they nothing, people with no emotions or anything, It was disgusting. 

"I don't know- okay, i just-" 

"Discovering what truly animalistic humans are? hm? are you scared of that?" 

I pushed him away, i didn't need his help, i heard him chuckle. 

"Oh come on Jongho? i hope you remember everything is not cupcakes and rainbows" 

I looked at him, and returned the stare that he was giving me, i hated this place, but i couldn't leave, i felt like a mouse stuck inside a cage and being taunted. 

"This is wrong- im im a doctor, im supposed to take care of people not hurt them!" My voice extra aggressive.

I was confused, hurt, i felt insane, i felt like i did something immoral, was i even worthy of my degrees? was i even a truly a doctor?

Did i fail my only ever dream?

To help people, to make them feel better about themselves, now im stuck here, where people get hurt everyday, and i can't do anything because im too full and weak-minded of my self? 

What will my parents think of this? they been asking me questions and i haven't responded to any of them, what will i do? What will Wooyoung think of me once he finds out i'm a monster too?

I let people get harmed, and i did nothing. 

I am utterly and stupidly pathetic.

And Yeosang will kill me.

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