【Red Ink || ATEEZ OT8】

Hush Hush | CHAP 14

May or not be some spicy smut in this *wink wink* I PUT IT IN THE WARNINGS OKAY, also its probably not good 


My heart ached for San as he told the ever broken love story that was him and Mingi, it made sense in a way.

I always seemed to find both together, or not far away from each other at all, though it never answered my question what Mingi was, he did give me more emotional insight on what he was in the past, and nobody can truly let go of themselves from the past. 

At this very tender moment in time, San was tearing up, clearly affected by emotions that was Mingi brought upon him. 

He didn't deserve that, no one deserves that feeling of being used, but still addicted to that person like a never-ending drug.  

I decided to leave him alone, as i had no idea on what to do, as he seemed emotionally disturbed.

Can you imagine loving so much, and so deeply that you witness them the most unforgiving and cruel acts on humans, yet there is no hate in your soul for them? its hard to imagine isn't it? well thats quite the complex concept of live, you can't imagine unless you are in their shoes, under their sweet manipulation, such sweet words that fall from their lover lips, people are so easy to persuade if you say the right words, the flaw of our emotional human nature. 

In most eyes, San will look absurd or insane, unlogical, but in my eyes of someone that is unloveable in most people's eyes or simply pushed to the side, i only ever crave the emotional connection he felt, the intense and deep passion, for someone to love you so sweetly and so close to their heart, and let some of my deepest and most hidden desires to come alive. 

But such a passion doesn't exist in a aromantics mind for where they will be hushed away as a secret, enough to be touched, not enough to be loved. 

But, there was someone that my heart did race for, yet, i will never admit to myself, but he always smiles when i come. 

"Yeosang?" 

I knocked on his door, gently,  i was always so anxious and nervous to wake him up. 

"Dr Choi?" 

"Yes, it's me." 

He carefully opened the door up, his eyes always glowed a very faint red when he saw me, as like his eyes sparkled when they saw me. But, his eyes changed drastically when they met mine for the second time. 

"Oh... something is deeply bothering you isn't there?" 

His deep voice, went soft. 

I honestly don't know what i was feeling, so i couldn't answered his question.

"Im just here to check up on you." My tone was bit colder than usual, maybe to give Yeosang the impression i was once again not in the mood to talk about my confused emotions.

Yeosang nodded and let me in, swiftly closing the door behind me.

He sat on the bed, we have developed this routine, since i see him so often, i guess we got comfortable with one another. 

I took his blood pressure and afterwards listened to his lungs and heart. Getting up to write his vitals. I have to do this everyone as vampires can be all over the place and i need to find his 'normal'

"Dr choi, what's wrong?" 

I ignored the question again, still not in the mood. 

It was quiet. 

I then looked at him, he looked a bit sick, it had been few hours since i feed him. 

"Yeosang are you hungry?" 

He ignored me, which was fair, i did the same. 

There was this tension now, and i didn't like it one bit, it wasn't good when Yeosang was quiet, it meant he had something on his mind, swallowing him up, but that also meant the same for me, for when i didn't open up. 

"Dr Choi.. why weren't you tell me whats wrong?" His voice was quiet, when i looked at him, he- he had tears in his eyes.. His faced changed to be more softer, why was he so bothered by me not talking? 

This wasn't the same Yeosang i knew, who was  charismatic, always used his snake of a tongue to sneak a flirt in. 

Maybe he did finally settle down after his bloodlust subsided. 

"Yeosang, i dont w-" 

I was shushed by loud crying, "Y-you don't ever- tell me w-whats wrong! you know how many things i feel on- on a daily? and especially from y-you, i can feel you!" 

His tone was filled with a lot of pain, i didn't know he had, nor did he care so much. 

"A-and you humans always l-lock up your feelings!" 

He sounded very upset. It hurt to hear him like that.

"Y-yeosang, i'm sorry alright? i just- i just- don't know how to talk about them without feeling weak.."

Even admitting that felt weak, i hated this. I should've just left, why am i just standing here? caring so much?

Yeosang than stood up slowly and looked at me, he slowly grabbed my hand, and kissed it.

it felt electric when he kissed my hand, my heart picked up, i knew he could hear it. It was like something sparked in me and i didn't quite know what.

"Jongho.. whats wrong?" he said almost smirking, his grip getting ever tighter. It was hard to not freak out, i didn't wanna tell him. He would hate me. 

"I- I-" 

I was overwhelmed, whatever he was doing to me was working, but i felt so guilty. I didn't wanna tell what i did in the 'basement' what i felt, i didn't want Yeosang to see that side of me. 

Wetness on my face, fuck- i was crying. 

I looked down at the ground, i didn't like this anymore, not did ever like this in the first place. 

"Jongho?" 

He cupped my face ever so carefully and made me look up at him. 

"Tell me." 

"Yeosang i did something really b-bad.." 

I sounded like a stupid little child, maybe i just fucking was... A stupid child.. theres no longer purpose here.. im fucking weak.. stupid.. insane.

"Like what?" His words filled with so much, it was almost disgusting.

"I- i know what t-they do h-here- And- and-"

I hate emotions, they are flaws.. they are burdenful and painful.. because here i am crying.. uncontrollably. 

"Oh~ Jongho" he hugged me, and tightly, i couldn't help but cry more and more. 

"Hush, hush its okay- awh.." 

He was patting my head, and whispering soothing things, it was heavy on my heart.

"Y-yeosang i saw- i saw so many fucking dead people.. And i- didn't d-do anything-" 

My voice breaking, it was so pitiful, in this very moment i just wanted to leave. 

"Jongho, its okay, sadly.. its common here, oh my sweet Jongho.. can i make you feel better?"

His tone was bit odd, but i just wanted to stop crying.

I nodded, my throat to choked out to response. 

He then gave me a sweet smile.. and then... 

He kissed me.. It was sweet kiss. 

His face was red, mine was red, I kinda just stood there, not knowing what to or react. 

I guess out of human nature i kissed him back.

--SMUT HERE, well leading up to it anyways-- ALSO BLOOD KINK- and also its kinda rushed BECAUSE IM TIRED T T FORGIVE MEEEEEEEEEE


I don't know what i was feeling as we kissed each other back and before with such passion, did i really like him this much? 

It was wrong- i was his-

I knocked out of my thoughts when he put his cold hand under my shirt. The feeling sent shivers.

"Y-yeosang- 

"Shush- you are so handsome when you are just quiet yknow that?" 

I fluttered my eyes, this all was a new feeling. Being quiet.

A drowning and breath-taking feeling. 

I was able to control myself till he kissed my neck, He seemed to notice all the spots that i was most sensitive too. 

I couldn't help when soft moans left my mouth.

It was also another deep feeling when his fangs would softly graze my skin as he kissed my neck. 

"Jongho, can i make you mine?" 

He whispered, anyone in this event can't say no. Its already too emotionally invested.

I looked down at him, as he was the height of my neck 

"D-doesnt this already make me?" 

He just smiled, and looked at me, his eyes just glowing red "I suppose so." 

He kissed me on the cheek "But, do you like me? do you wanna be with me?" 

This question left a mark on my mind, but i think it was pretty obvious on what the answer was. 

"I love you, Yeosang." 

4 words that changed my everything.

"I love you too, Jongho." 

Before i knew it, i was thrown basically, on his bed, he was stronger than i expected. 

As he got on top of me, his knees by my ribcage, he began stripping me of my clothes. 

I didn't want to stop him.

With some help, i was now naked, though i made sure my clothes weren't all over the floor. 

He then stared at my nude body with such thrill, its hard to describe was the first time always this tense?

"Oh Jongho.. you are beautiful.. your body heat is addicting.." 

He pressed against me, kissing my neck, and sucking on it. I know he was getting hungry, because he nipping was my neck practically. 

"Y-yeosang- a-are you hungry?" 

"I am-" His voice quiet, like he didn't wanna admit it.

I smiled, i could see it in his eyes, the desperation, it was cute.

"Take off my gauze on my wrist."

He looked scared, i knew he didn't wanna hurt me, but he was hungry.

"Do it, i'll be fine." 

He slowly nodded and carefully took my wrist, and teared off the wrapping.

Blooding dripping down my wrist, still not fully healed.

"Drink."

1 word and he was at it, the sucking was more intense this, but somehow more romantical. 

My own blood dripping on his face, i loved his sight of him. 

He wasn't being gentle or slowing down anytime soon. 

Good, i needed him to be alright.

I could feel his fangs pressed and turn into my skin. It felt so good.

"Yknow- your blood taste so good? so delicious?" Jongho muttered out after he had enough. 

His hands and face covered with the red substance. 

Before i could respond, he was licking my nipples before i could respond, I didn't that they could feel this way-

I was at awe in the new sensation that was flowing through my body, it felt so good. 

"Jongho~ are you a virgin your so sensitive, i can hear your bloodstream and heartbeat pounding." 

I closed my eyes, it was shameful to admit.

"Y-yes."

He then grabbed my chin. "Then, this will be the best first-time sex, you will ever get, sweetheart."

He then slowly moved down and slowly grabbed my erected dick, slowly moving it up and down, looking for my reaction.

My back arched at the strong feeling, a spoon of moans left my mouth. 

He did that awhile. he brought it to his lips, and swirled his tongue at the tip. 

I already wanted to cum in that moment. 

It felt so good, but i knew not too, as we haven't gotten to the main event. 

After deepthroating and gagging, i really did not just want a blowjob, i wanted him, in fact i needed him, the issue no lube, or condoms. 

He looked at me, we both wanted to go further, but it was just too risky and dangerous. 

So we had to stop, as being raw for my first time with no  lubrication would hurt, more than pleasure, he the the idea of using blood, but that just sounds like STI from hell. 

But we did finish each other by jerking off, i was too scared to give him a blowjob. 

Afterwards i was already tired and i still was a doctor, though he did mention

"You always had the prettiest moans ever." 

Before i fell asleep naturally.