DREAM OF DEATH

DREAM OF DEATH [BEGINNING]

Weiying:- I'm already here I cut the call and enter in hotel. After taking the room key from the receptionist, I open the door and she welcomes me with sweet smile.

Wei ying, I was so worrying, Mia Mia  runs  to me and I take her in my arms, she smells to nice as always and first time during those hell like days I feel a little calm.

I'm really ok.

You didn't even tell me about being in the hospital, look at yourself too pale her eyes became teary and my heart breaks, I'm not the same as before, if you know what happened with be able to still love me?

I made your favorite soup not too sweet and full of spices cause you're enough already she giggles and shows her cute dimes but even trying so hard can't do the same.
 
I'll enjoy dear,Thank you so much, are you wearing new dress?

Mn,beautiful no?

You always are

But....frowns why you talk like polite stranger ? Wei ying are you breaking up with me?

Such a silly thoughts, sure I'm not, come here I faintly smile and pull her down on my lap, she is so warm and I feel safe, we met in very painful and shaming situation for me and I thought she gonna be like other rich girls ,who watches everyone from above but surprisingly Mia Mia became heal of my wound so many times , someone who cares and comforts me , maybe now too ,if I just stop and live same as before like nothing happened.......do you really love me?

What? We are dating for years Wei ying and you need to ask?

I'm sorry, I just fear maybe you're fake like them too, how am I going to trust people again like before?

I know very well you have complexes about our life style difference,  but you know too well that I don't care. Let's stop waiting until you find good job and and get money it's important for you but, I want to introduce you to my parents already it's bean too long Wei ying .

I'll think about this  she nods  happily and cling on me , cupping my face Mai Mai pulls our lips together and I return  the ,kiss so sweet and soft , she careess the only part of mine his dirty hands and lips didn't touch and I enjoy it but as soon she moves down to my neck and unbuttons my shirt I tremble, the more she expose my skin the more fear , she can notice already invisible marks . Feeling her lips kissing my chest brings the memories of him suking on it and I yell , unable to hold please stop.

Wei ying, don't scare me, he looks at me startled face and just realize I'm shaking like leaf and my face is wet from tears, I loudly sob out and hug her waist, not anymore.......I can't carry this pain in me,I need to at least cry to get love and comfort.

What is wrong with you? Please tell me what can I do for you ? She kisses my hair and Whisper it's ok,it gonna be ok.

I'm not worth of your love anymore, I'll hold you whole night like this. You can go through this , my Wei ying is strong wish it was this easy...I close eyes and sleep peacefully......before leaving I softly kiss her forehead and Whisper I'm sorry for everything.