You're A Doll, You Are Flawless. || Dazai x Chuuya [Soukoku] || Inspired by C.ai

Chapter 11

TW: Potential Smut (nipple teasing)

Dazai nods and his fingers intertwine with Chuuya's before he leads the way out of the room, out of the house and outside. The warm night breeze lightly blows against them as they make their way down the street.

Chuuya felt at peace as he was walking down the street with Dazai. His hand tightly held Dazai's, their fingers intertwining as if Chuuya's life depended on it, and he leaned against Dazai slightly as they walked. No one else knew how happy he was, no one else knew how he felt. Only Dazai and him did, and that was all that mattered to Chuuya. Dazai only wanted him. He smiled to himself at that thought. He was Dazai's, and Dazai was his.

"The moon looks beautiful tonight." Dazai hums as he looks up at the sky. There were no stars out due to them being in the city but the moon illuminated the dark night sky plentifully. There was a hidden meaning behind the word Dazai spoke as it was an old metaphor in Japanese as it was a poetic way of saying 'I love you'. The traditional response would be 'Yes it is' which hinted at reciprocation. Chuuya already knew that Dazai loved him as he had confessed back at the party.

Chuuya's face immediately flushed upon hearing Dazai's words, his heart beginning to frantically beat in his chest. It took all of his self control to not just pull Dazai and kiss him right then and there. He knew what Dazai meant by his words. They've read the same book before. It was an indirect way of saying 'I love you'.

"Y-yeah. It is beautiful." Chuuya quietly murmured as he looked up at the moon, his heart fluttering in his chest.

"Here we are." Dazai murmured, and stopped walking in front of what seemed to be a 5 star hotel. They had entered the late night plaza of the city where all the high rise buildings and people were buzzing at it was only about 8-9PM on a Saturday night.

Chuuya looked at the hotel and swallowed hard. This was really happening. They were really going to spend the night together and who knows what will happen. He glanced back at Dazai nervously and bit his lip. He wanted to go, but he was getting cold feet.

"Dazai, are you sure about this?" He murmured and looked away sheepishly, a blush rising on his face as he struggled to look Dazai in the eye.

"We don't have to. It's not a requirement and I know that it's your first time. You said that you wanted to spend the night together and this is the only place we can really do it and have privacy." Dazai says softly, he bit his own lip a little anxiously too as he looked at Chuuya with a gentle gaze.

Chuuya looked down, slightly ashamed that Dazai was being so sweet towards him while he was feeling so anxious. It wasn't fair to Dazai, so Chuuya decided to try and suck it up and be a man. He knew it would be fine, he knew Dazai would take care of him.

"I- I want to. I want to do this. I just, I've just never done something like this before and... I'm scared. That's all." Chuuya finally confessed and looked back at Dazai.

"It'll be fine. I'll go slow. Or we can just not do it so soon when it's only been a few minutes since we've started dating. It could be unhealthy." Dazai hums. There was a possibility that they could end up too sexually dependent on each other to the point their relationship becomes over sexual or just based on sexual needs and desires.

That was the last thing Chuuya wanted. He wanted more with Dazai, more than just a sexual relationship... He wanted a true one. He didn't want their relationship to be so focused around it.

"I-I know that. I just don't want to disappoint you is all. You're more used to these kinds of things." He murmured meekly, his face burning from embarrassment as he glanced at Dazai shyly. "And I don't want to disappoint you or be bad at anything."