"W-what?" I said as i woke up. I looked over and saw a smiling Andy.
"Good morning" I said as I got up and stretched.
"Where're you going?" He asked getting up from the bed.
"Well, I'm hungry and I smell blueberry muffins so I gotta go and find them.." I said
"OK, just save me some!" He yelled to me as I ran out.
"Whatever!" I yelled back.
I ran into the kitchen and saw Sammi Doll making muffins. I just stood there not wanting her to notice me.
"Oh, hey. You must be Lily! Jinxx told me about you." She said with the brightest smile I've ever seen.
I couldn't help but smile.
"Cool. And I know a lot about you." I smiled.
"Nice, I think we'll be really good friends." She cheered.
I laughed at her happiness.
"Sure.." I laughed.
When she finished the muffins we both sat down and just, talked.
By the time we were finished, I remembered how Andy wanted a muffin.
"Oh, well, I gotta go, Andy wanted a muffin, talk to you later." I smiled.
I grabbed a muffin and brought it back to Andy.
"Andy, I have your muff-" I was cut off when I walked in the room and he was fast asleep.
I just put the muffin on the table next to him and wrote him a note.
Dear Andy,
I'm going down to the park to get some alone time. I just need quiet time and some fresh air.
If you need me feel free to come and get me.
See you later.
Love,
Lily ❤
I grabbed my jacket and a water and headed down to the park.
I was just gonna sit down on the swings and think. Think about my new family.
The thoughts started to go threw my head.
What if they end up not liking me?
What if the rest find out I cut?
What if they end up finding me disgusting?
What if I fail in life around them?
What if I cut to deep?
What if I actually wanna die?
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That question really set me off.
"Of course I wouldn't want to..." I whispered to myself.
"Why would I..." I asked myself.
"Hey, Lily" Andy said as he walked over to me eating the muffin.
"Hey," I said as I got up and gave him a hug.
"You need anything?" I asked.
"No, just wanted to come down here and talk." He said as he sat down at a swing.
"Wucha wanna talk about?" I asked as I sat down on the swing next to him.
"You..." He said.
"What..?" I asked with a confused look on my face.
"Listen... I want you to know, if you ever feel upset, or if you ever need anything, you can come to me. I will ALWAYS be there for you." He said.
"I know" I said and looked down at my feet.
"And always remember, the guys and I love you. Nothing bad could ever happen to you." He said and sat e on his lap.
"Hey..." I whispered to him.
"Yeah?" He asked.
"Where did Brett go?" I asked. I haven't seen him for a while so I was just wondering.
"Oh, he went with some of the guys to the mall, they've been keeping him busy." He chuckled.
"Oh." I said.
"Hey, let's go back." He said and grabbed me.
"Ok" I said. And with that, we started to go back. Chatting the whole way.
Sorry I've taken such a long time, I'm on vacation and I finally got WiFi. I'm at North Carolina right now but I'm going to Georgia tomorrow, I'm originally from Toledo, Ohio. So if I take a while, don't get mad, I probably just don't have WiFi, kk, so, byeee
