Silent Tears

04 Necklace

Kristine's

i rushed out to the garden only to found out that the wave from where jay throw it is evidently seen, maliit ang pond but for god sake it's deep that i could swim if i want to, i knew it because i did it, ako ang gumawa ng pond nato

without hesitation i jump in, i clearly don't think of anything else because what i want now is to find it, find what my mom gave me matching kirstine's

i swam deep and try finding it, the cold sends shiver into my spine, i can't actually see the underneath because of dark surrounding, maitim narin ang tubig dahil sa paglangoy ko at sure akong baka natabunan nayon dahil sa pag kaway ng mga paa ko sa ilalim habang nalangoy ako

i minutes of finding i hear aera calling me from where? wala na akong iba pang naiisip kundi hanapin yon

"ate please let others do it. ipapahanap ko yon kaya bumalik ka na dito, you're soaked again ate" she said clearly wanting me to step out of the water

i managed to swam back to the surface "i'm sorry for being stubborn aera but i need to find it, it's the only thing that reminds me of them....si mama..... si kirstine"

"sige dalawa tayo maghahanap kung hindi kapa aalis diyan, at nama for pete's sake may sinat ka parin, inisip mo manlang ba yon" she protest, i felt her sincerity when she said it kaya baka tumalon din siya dito

i step out of the water with the fear of not finding it ever again, i'm so fucked up, kung hindi ko sana iniwan yon nung nage emote ako edi hindi  mawawala

*ate let others do it, i know that's so special to you kaya ipapahanap natin yon"

"aera where's your kuya? i need to talk to him" coldness clearly feel in my tone

"n-nasa loob ate, tara na para matuyo ka narin"

she guided me inside only to find jay calmly sit at the sofa na parang walang nagyari

"you're wet. magpalit ka na" he said, facing me with dark gazes

"you're happy now?" i managed to speak feeling the hate to him inside me

wala na kaming patutunguhan pa, hindi ko na kaya ang ugali niya

"what?" he pause "the fuck are you saying kristine!?"

"stop with that ate, kuya, magpahinga na muna kayo" aera contests

i look at her and give her a weak smile before pushing her weakly "go to your room baby, kaya na ni ate"

she immediately understand the situation and rushed to go inside of her room

"what now woman? surprisingly na pati kapatid ko nabilog mo na" jay said out of frustration i guess? nabawasan nanaman ba ego niya

"stop with it jay, stop being so immature punong puno nako" he look at me full of anger "masaya ka naba ngayon na pati nag iisang bagay na nagre-remind sakin kay tine at sa mga magulang ko wala narin?"

"wala akong alam don, i mistook it in the first place"

"may choice ka naman to question others kung kanino yon pero hindi mo ginawa"

he stand up and started to walk towards me with his fist clenching, siya na may kasalanan siya pa galit

he grabbed my arm without any hesitation seen in his eyes, at this moment he's a total monster

"what now? sasaktan mo na ako physically? go on jay, i'm fucking use to it" i proudly said not wanting he's ego met mine

"don't test me woman, i told you earlier that i mistook it, could you please stop with this dahil naiirita na ako sayo" he's evil tone