Silent Tears

11 sick

Kristine's

all i could do now is to feel the uncomfortabe feeling around, it's like i'm craving for the chance to get out of this situation

i saw him looking at me when i look back but it didn't happen again after that, i completely ignore him all throughout letting my silence occupied throughout the conversation, what can i do? i can't face him now

not this time

he changed a lot from what he was the last time i saw him, his shoulder got more broaden than before and like jay, he formed more manly than the last time i took a glance at him

he completely changed

the entire house filled with loud laughs, it's a reunion of a forgotten friendship after what happened before, it's like we're building again after a year

i smiled sometimes when jake throws a joke but back form being silent whenever i felt those eyes looking at me

the night filled with new memories of the reunion, we drink a little when jake said "a reunion will never be a reunion without a drink"

"not too much tine" jay often warns me about the alcohol but what can i do if jake always insisted and giving me a shot

"hayaan mo na siya bro, she's doing fine" jake always interrupting jay

we ended up finishing the party at 10, nauna umuwe si jake because his father called him for an urgent meeting, i wonder how his dad would react if he saw that tipsy jake

hee and chloe stayed here, jay offered the guest room for hee, while chloe stayed at aera's room

"is it okay bro? kaya ko pa naman mag drive, chloe can stay here i'll fetch her tomorrow nalang" heeseung tried and tried to get home but jay's authority always make him surrender

jay only gave him a mocking face "you're older than me but seems you're acting likethe little one when you're drunk" he said, jokingly tap. heeseung's shoulder "just stay and rest, hee"

natahimik lang ako habang nag uusap sila, i want to rest also but when i saw how jay and hee walked upstairs a while ago? i decided to make them rest first before me, hindi naman ako masyadong lasing

"okay, goodnight jay" hee said tapping jay's head "goodnight tine"

his words lingered on me while assisting jay to his room

"how was the meeting with him again tine?" jay question me by the moment we entered his room "did you two talked about what happened before?"

i didn't answer back, it feels like there's something in me that wanted to keep it's silence

the guilt still haunting me

"you don't have to answer me tine, you rest now" jay's calm voice made me at ease "i'm all ears if you want to talk about it"

"yeah i know, rest now jay"
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i woke up in the morning with a headache maybe because of the alcohol last night

kumain lang kami ng breakfast then hee and chloe decided to go home after, aera wants to come but jay didn't let her

"sandali lang naman ako don kuya" aera with her sulking tone

"not gonna convince with that aera, let them rest muna sure ako may hang over si hee" jay answer him, i took a glance at him, he's getting pale and weakly took his actions but i ignore it

i did my day to day routine, clean the garden, do the chores and make chit chat with aera, i feel like a teenager whenever i talk to her, she often talk about her teenage love life that he can't tell to jay kasi takot siya sa reaction na makukuha niya kay jay