Struggling

Chapter 8

* the next morning

* Noah woke up he got up he looked at Charlie he was sitting up thinking about everything

Charlie *opens his eyes : hey
Noah : hi
Charlie : you okay
Noah : yeah fine
Charlie : you sure
Noah : yea

* Charlie got up sat on the bed with Noah

Charlie : Noah you can talk to me
Noah *looks at him : I'm sorry
Charlie : for what
Noah : for how I've been towards you .. you deserve better
Charlie : hey it's okay no I don't I want you Noah *grabs his hand
Noah : I'm not worth it
Charlie : you are Noah you're everything to me
Noah : how can you say that I lost my mom and a part of me has gone
Charlie : and I get it Noah
Noah *looks at him and nods
Charlie *smiles at him : I should get going I'll see you Monday
Noah *nods

* Charlie hugged Noah and left

* Noah took a shower and changed

* he looked at him dad he's making coffee

Noah : dad
Tim : yea bud
Noah : I.... I'm sorry
Tim * looks at him : for what
Noah : how I've been acting towards you and Lucy I just uh
Tim : I get it you miss mom
Noah : dad could I visit her today
Tim : her grave
Noah : yea
Tim : of course
Noah : I just need to talk to her
Tim : of course

* and Tim drank his Coffee and got changed and they headed out Tim stopped by grabbed some flowers they arrive at the location

* Tim looks at Noah

Tim : I'll be here bud let me know when it's okay to come over
Noah *nods

* Noah got out he kneels by her grave and puts the flowers down

Noah : mom I miss you you don't understand how hard it's been dad's been good he's been an amazing dad but I struggle sometimes without you i remember when you used to come to one of my football games you'd always cheer for me when I scored  *tears fall down his face : I miss your laugh I miss your smile I miss the way you looked at me I miss your smell I miss how you used to make me laugh dad's got a girlfriend her names Lucy's she's a cop she has a daughter mom I've been trying to bond with her I am trying it's just hard you know mom I need to tell you something you remember Charlie my best friend well I did something and I don't know what to do I kissed him mom and I don't know what to do I just want my mom *cries

* flower drops down on him

Noah *sees a red flower he smiles a bit he wipes his tears he looks at his dad he nods

* Tim got out of the car heads over to him

Noah : bye mom I'll come back soon I love you

* Noah went to the car

Tim : hey I got a girlfriend her names Lucy she's a cop she has a daughter to be honest Noah struggled with it but he told me he's gonan try with them we miss you I don't know what's been going on with Noah these days he doesn't talk to me I hardly know what's going on with him I don't even know if he has a girlfriend  * he begins to cry : he misses you you know couple Weeks ago Noah actually cried in my arms because he missed you so much he never did that when you died he kept him emotions in he finally did let go okay I promise I'll visit you more I have to go * wipes his tears and heads back to the car

* Tim drives home

* Noah and Tim watched the football game Tim decided to spent time with his son he missed Noah

Tim : so do you have a girlfriend
Noah : no
Tim : oh okay Noah I'm trying here I want my baby boy back
Noah *nods : I like this one person but I don't know if it'll work out
Tim : why bud
Noah : because I'm close to this person and I don't want to ruin our friendship
Tim : does she make you happy
Noah : yea I like his
Tim : his
Noah : sorry meant I like her smile her laugh the way she cares about me
Tim : if you like this person talk to her
Noah *nods

* they continue to watch the game

* about 10pm Noah went to bed he changed into a shirt and joggers  and he lied down in his bed put the covers over him

* Noah grabs his phone and texts Charlie

Noah - can we talk tomorrow

* hope you liked this chapter

* is noah gonna finally tell Charlie about his feelings

* find out next  chapter