My Angel

My Angel: Chapter 9

We rode in silence, which both of us needed a little of after all of this.

Finally, it all feels like it's settling down - I changed, and so did she, but everything was out in the open, there weren't any secrets left between the two of us, and we both kinda had a handle on what we were.

Well, we didn't have anything important left that we were keeping from each other. Nothing that would hurt us.

I could feel my angel's breath as she leaned her head on my shoulder.

I couldn't help but watch Julie as she rested. I studied her face, and I realized it looked much more different than when she was awake properly. Her face looked more like the Jules I knew before all this had happened, the anger lines smoothed out, almost peaceful. I hadn't noticed before, but there were dark circles under her eyes. She looked younger than she did awake—young, and incredibly weary.

It was a look I didn't like. She shouldn't have to be so... heroic. So self-sacrificing. Because that was what she was, she was a hero - keeping people safe, putting her life on the line to stop monsters from hurting others. She should be... both of us should be back in her garage like we always were - her fixing up the bikes or working on her car, and me, sitting on the side making stupid quips. The both of us carefree. Normal.

I could live with being a vampire - my angel was the only reason I wanted to be one... but could Jules live without being a wolf?

"Hey," I said as softly as I could, not wanting to disturb her from the obvious rest she needed, but I needed to ask. "Are you ok?"

Slowly, she opened her eyes again, lazily turning her head, and smiling at me with a confused look. "Yeah." She said it was obvious. "Why wouldn't I be?"

I shrugged. "I don't know. I just... you seem kinda... tired." I said gently. She sighed, shuffling in her seat and closing her eyes again, not saying anything about it.

After a second of silence, she asked back. "Are you okay?"

I kept quiet for a minute. "Yeah."

She waited a few seconds, her eyes still closed, and then eventually I said a quiet. "No." I heard her concerned breath, and I could hear her heartbeat pick up slightly.

She sat up, and looked at me, though I didn't look at her. I didn't want to keep seeing pity from the wolves - anger and disgust I could deal with, but pity wasn't something I wanted - especially not from Jules. I might be dead, but they didn't have to keep making me feel bad about it.

"I mean... no... but I'm... I don't know." I muttered, staring out the windshield as I took deep breaths. I didn't want to say that at all, but I wanted to be honest with her, as much as I could be - she deserved that.

We were both quiet for a long time... until she suddenly bit out. "I don't understand how she could do that."

"Do what?" I asked, playing dumb.

"Leave you... say those things. I know that there's some good vamps," She grabbed my hand, sucking in a breath at feeling my cold skin, "But some... some are just... evil." She squeezed my hand, and then let go. "Or just stupid."

I pursed my lips, letting the pain roll through me. "She was being kind," I said quietly, to which I got a hollow laugh from her. She shook her head, scowling.

"No Beau - no. That was not kindness."

"It was." I insisted, holding onto the steering wheel tight. I could tell that she wanted to argue with me about it, that she'd wanna talk about this till the sun went down and the cloudy day went away. So, quickly, I asked. "Well, what about you? Why are you being so kind to me? Why go through the effort of defending a vampire from your pack?"