goodnight n go | Rafe Cameron

Thirty One

"Is that Rafe?" Fuck! I forgot that I agreed to meet him because of all the craziness from the day. "Huh I guess it is," I don't know what to say. I know he's gonna lose his shit once he sees that I'm with Enzo.

I see it immediately, the tick that emerges as he clenches his jaw. His eyes narrow as they run over Enzo and I don't know what to say. "Hey." I mumble afraid for his response. "Hey, Rose just wanted me to come and pick up something she let you borrow?" He lies effortlessly and I just nod along. "Oh right yeah, it's just up in my room. I'll go grab it." He nods and looks down at the ground.

"I'll see you later Nar." Enzo says when I turn back to him. "Are you sure?" I ask noticing the way Rafe looks up at me. "Yeah, rest up alright?" I nod and am so surprised that he kisses my cheek with his goodbye. I was absolutely disgusting right now, I wouldn't even be stood next to me if I was him. My cheeks warm and he notices, he smiles and waves before he gets back in his car.

We're both silent as we watch him drive away. And then I hear a scoff. "You're unbelievable." I turn to Rafe questioningly. "Don't look at me like that, you knew I was coming to see you and you were bringing him home." I don't miss the way that he emphasises the him. "He was just driving me back." That earns me another scoff. "Yeah and you begging him to stay was what?" I roll my eyes. "He's my friend." If he scoffs at me one more time. "I bet he is."

I stare at him for a second before just walking over to my front door. "Don't just walk away from me Nara." He follows me in and I sigh pinching the bridge of my nose. "What do you want me to say?" I ask. "I don't know!" It's quiet for a second. "Why him Nara? Why Enzo?" He asks and I shrug. "I like him." His eyes narrow again. "Have you hooked up with him?" My mouth drops at the audacity. "I'm not answering that." I tell him firmly, "so you have?" He continues making me roll my eyes. "Quite frankly that's not really any of your business." He catches my wrist as I go to turn away and he pulls me back into him.

"What do you want from me?" I ask him. "Nothing. I don't know! I just want to be with you!" I almost falter. Almost. "Do you know how much I think about you? How much I try not to care but I do, you're the only person who gets me. You get me, you understand you believe in me and you've always been here for me no matter how hard I screw up. I know I screw up a lot and that kills me Nara, it kills me that I hurt you and you still comforted me. You're so good, you're unreal and I know you think I'm evil but I want to be better. I want to be better for you, be the man you deserve." My mouth is agape, 'don't fold Nara! Don't fold!' It's so incredibly hard to stay cool after that declaration, he basically just told me that he loved me.

"Rafe." All I can do is murmur his name softly as I'm still in disbelief, what does one do after a declaration like that? My heart flutters as he takes my hand in his, he gently tugs me closer and brings his fingers up to my face. They dance lightly across my features as he stares at me so intensely I feel as though I'm going to drown in his eyes.

"What happened to you?" He asks as he looks over the dirt all over me. I was honestly surprised he was this close to me, I looked like I was covered in shit. I probably didn't smell any better either. I shake my head, what did I say? Oh yeah I was looking for the murder weapon you used so that you go to jail and John B is proven innocent. "Long day." I mumble lowly, something flickers behind his eyes as he looks me up and down. He's about to say something but then he quickly stops himself. "Are you okay?" He asks, I simply nod. I don't know what to say to him.

"What're you thinking?"

"There's something about you Rafe. No matter how hard I try, I can't stay away." I admit as I lean into his touch, "and trust me, I've tried." He chuckles lightly we stay in silence for a moment before he starts leaning down. "No, I can't," I tell him softly as I gently pry myself from his grip. "I have something going on with Enzo, it's not fair for either of you." His face sours, his entire body suddenly becoming cold. "You're choosing him over me?" I shake my head, "I'm not choosing anyone, I just don't think it's right for me to do this and lead him on. I just wanna at least let him know first."

"Whatever, have him." He spits before he storms off just leaving me watching after him like an idiot. How the fuck did we get here? I shake my head and sigh, I mean what was I expecting? I try and ignore the gnawing in my chest and brush it off. I should know better by now. Instead I lock my door and decide to finally clean this shit off me. I know that's not the last of it with Rafe, he'd be back. We'd probably go through all this again though. We seemed to be in a fucked up cycle and I wasn't even sure we'd be able to break it.