The Melody Of Our Love

44.The diary and fear

Mehar's pov:

After one month:

Can you all believe that I am soon going to become a Mom.

I can't believe it.

And to give you all another good news,Anusha is also pregnant.

She is two weeks pregnant and they told this good news to us yesterday night.

Everything is going so good.

It's like there are only happiness spreading around us.and i hope it will remain that way only.

So i decided that I will write a diary everyday so that my baby can read it whenever he or she grows up.ofcourse,when he or she will be adult.

I opened the diary which is of light pastel pink colour and also had a lock in it.

I took the pen from the nightstand and started writing.

I am so happy now.eveythingbis going really really good.its been one month since we discovered that we are going to blessed with a child.

I don't know if you will be a boy or a girl,but I will love you my child with all my heart .

Three months:

It's now three months and now my mood swings are clearly can seen even by just looking at my face ,anyone can say that I am frustrated.

Sometimes,I feel so much anger that I just want to rip someone apart . sometimes,I feels so caring ,sometimes I am frustrated like hell .Even one day ,I was wondering that I should smash karan's head on wall just because he didn't put enough choclate in my cake.

Although the cake was fully decorated with chocolates.

I even went to his office one day and cried saying that he doesn't love me anymore.

But then he surprised me with my favourite pink roses and chocolates.

So I became happy.hehe...

I told you nobody can predict my mood.

Five months:

Hey bacha,you know what happened today.

I woke up in the middle of the night and started crying loudly .

Because of that ,karan woke up abruptly and started looking here and there and then his gaze stopped on me.

He cupped my face ,concern evident in his eyes.

His eyes were red because of less sleeping.sometimes I feel guilty for his this situation.

But then I thought ,he did all the work ,took pleasure and now I am bearing the child ,these mood swings ,the pain then why should he only feel pleasure.

So that's why my guilt vanished in the thick air .
He asked me what happened and I told him that I want to eat golgappe.

He looked at me baffled but he knows well what will happen if he denied.

So he sighed and told me to take rest and he will prepare it for me.

After that he got up and went downstairs.

I was getting bored because of waiting for so long so I got up and went down.

I heard some voices from the kitchen and I tiptoed towards there.

A smile formed on my face when I watched him preparing golgappe in the middle of night for his pregnant wife.

I am telling you if you are boy then do these little things for your wife to make her feel special .

And if you are girl then asks your husband to do these for you.

I went towards him and sat on the kitchen slab.

He looked at me and gave me the piece of bread with jam for munching something until the time he made the dish prepared.

Seven months:

Dear bacha,I am really really really excited to look at you .please come soon.i can't wait for so long.

You know ,these days I am feeling so romantic.

Hey you are reading this at 20 right .yes sure you will read this only when you will become twenty.

And the you will say wow,my mom is so cool.

Ok ,so where was i .

Yeah,I am feeling so romantic these days that i just can't stay away from your dad.

I mean I always want him near him.i don't want him to go away from me for just a minute.

Eight months pregnant:

Hey Mera bacha,I am feeling a little unease today .

I am feeling like someone is watching me.

No ,it can't be karan as I am familiar with his gaze.

It also can't be someone from family .because I am feeling some cold feeling.

Something dark.sonething that can send shivers to all your body.

I don't know i should tell this to karan or not because he is not well these days .Always came tired and exhausted but still he never failed to give me that comfort .

I really love him a lot.

After some days:

Karan went to office sometime ago.

I am scared.i told him not to go .but he said it's urgent.

I am feeling like something bad is going to happen.

Oh did I just told you that there is someone standing opposite to our house on the road.

Covered in fully black clothes with a joker mask on his face and straight looking at me from the window .

I sent guards to ask him his problem ,but he said that he is waiting for someone.

I just got chills ran through my spine even after looking at him from this far.

After sometime ,he went away in a black van.

Releif washes over me .

Thank God.today i will tell karan about this different unease in my heart.

Hope everything goes fine.

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