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Okay Eve you got this. All you have to do is smile, greet, and compliment people. Make some high-brow joke about the lower class. Find somewhere in there to mention to your parents that you are moving to out. I coach myself as I get out of my Jeep Wrangler I got for my sweet 16.
I straighten out my dress and check my make-up hand my keys to the valet. As I walk into the the venue to my mother's soirée I really want to go home and lay underneath the covers even though my appearance says I fit in here I don't. I guess I never really have.
My mom was a prima ballerina assoluta she met my father who happened to be a multibillionaire, of course from generational wealth he said all the right things sweptoff her feet. She went from working hard to hardly working she became a housewife and a stay-at-home mom 3 kids and a face lift later here we are. My older sister got married to some rich guy after he divorced his wife after 4 long years of having an affair. my older brother is in rehab for the 5 time because he can't stay off drugs. And me, the baby of the family is my mom's pride and joy 12 years of ballet ,tapped and jazz.
Then debate club ,cheerleading, dance school , tutors and homeschooling then private school to the best of everything. I became everything she wanted or wished she could of accomplished and I'm bout to tell her I'm throwing it all away to be on Lapd Swat . I know it may sound heartless like why would you tell your mother I'm not going to follow in her footsteps but I'm going to be a on Swat at a party.
Well, at this point, which choice do I have? I've tried telling her before and pretty much got derailed by her ramblings of her once again trying to plan my future my mom has live vicariously through me. My whole childhood trying not to make the same mistake she did with my sister and brother And of course her life. I've done everything. She asked no question. But I just wanna live for me. I want my life to be mines. I want to make mistakes. I want to fail and learn from them the mistakes.I mean, that's what life is.
Honestly, I've just been alive and not living. And it's not the life I want anymore. I just wanna be free I feel like a prisoner in my own life. Trust me I know they're a lot of people out there. Who's probably experienced worse than I have. That's why I want to help those people know I've privileged naïve young. Probably don't know anything about how the world works, but also, know with hard work and knowing the right people and working the system, you can navigate it for your benefit.
I watch enough white privileged people. find loopholes that can benefit them even when they're flat-out wrong so why can't I use the same exact loopholes to help someone in need someone who doesn't have a lawyer that's going to be on their side or a rich dad to pay off someone to change their story or have leverage over the judge because you've been golfing buddies for years.
There my Beautiful daughter so I was thinking since you're turning 26 soon don't you think it's time to get married? I know you haven't settled on a career yet don't worry I thought about it and I think you should Start performing like I did, but of course, you're not just great at the ballet.
You're also good at singing maybe not as strong as opera singer but I think you will be great on Broadway and as far marriage I talk to Chad. You know Troy's dad you remember Troy sweetie, he went to school with him you remember Troy varsity football Went to Harvard law school. Beautiful, hazel eyes, strong jawline your baby will look beautiful. I'm thinking you get engaged first.
Let everyone know you get a little bit more established and Broadway. I thinking 2 maybe 3 years tops that's enough time to plan an extravagant wedding you know bridal party by then Troy would have graduated and joined his father's law firm which he will be taking over. And of course, once you guys get married, you can leave behind Broadway and settle down as a housewife give me and your father a few grandchildren and your life will be blissful and sweet.
No, no I shake my head in dismay. I can't do this. I can't anymore mom I've tried. I'm sorry, but I can't. I'm tried to be your perfect daughter and do everything you asked of me, but I am not marrying Chad Wilson's son. Troy, he is the most elitist obnoxious person I've ever met. Remember Ashley, my best friend Ashley, who you adored up until she got pregnant and had to go on a trip to the south to have her baby Thats his son mom why do you think I wanna marry a man that is a womanizing egotistical asshole. now I get it he is rich he could open up doors that most people can't, but I'm not about to sell my soul for luxury for what you're calling peace mom if you would just look at me pay attention for two seconds you could see I am miserable. I hate this. I told her looking all around all of it. if you stop for one second you will realize upscale parties and material things are not the things I like. I'm very simplistic. My idea of spinning time with you or on the couch and talking about the latest book I read I'd rather spend my birthday at a diner than eating lunch at a bougie restaurant where they give you a snack size portion of food I love to eat. and I get it mom you had to work hard for everything you had until you met daddy and you don't never want me to struggle or go without as you can see. We're not struggling anymore. all I'm asking mom is you to let me live my life and if you can't and I'm sorry you can't be a part of this next chapter that I'm bout to enter. I am here to tell you I got a job helping people and doing something that makes me smile, and yeah, it may be risky and challenging, but I'm determining to make something of myself for my own without her mother trying to rescue her and I get it if you don't want me to fail, you don't want to struggle but Thats part of life. gotta let me go, mom.
As I said this, my mom went from shock to disbelief to tears of understanding.
I'm sorry, have to worry about real life problems that every day people go through I initially marry your father for love. I married him for sensibility and for comfort and that may sound like I'm a gold digger or materialistic, but I watch your grandmother struggle claw for everything she had and I didn't want all her struggles and all that clawing for me to have a fighting chance to go to waste and I think living with these bougie people she whispered made me forget or ignore what is like in the real world is there a humbling to see you want to go out there and search what makes you wanna Wanna live and find what makes you happy. I'm very proud of you. Honestly the whole marriage thing was because I realized you weren't happy every time I saw you you had this distant look on your face. Nobody was home and I realize you were just masking how you felt about everything, not trying to break your mother heart.
I love you for that baby, but you need to do want makes you happy, I'm sorry for being a helicopter mom. She hugs me tight. I love you. I tell her crying. I love you too Evie.
