𝘌𝘯𝘨𝘭𝘦𝘸𝘰𝘰𝘥 𝘉𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘩

Chapter Six | No amusement at the park

Heather, my cousin. She's beautiful, i mean she's the girl you would fall in love with at school, on vacation, at the mall, anywhere, just by one glance. Let's just say we're a religious family, where it's not really okay if you date someone that's not in the same religion as you. No sex before marriage is a big rule. She kept her relationship with this boy that she met on an app a secret. Her dad found out. Everything went down hill. In the end, she was expelled you could say, she chose a boy instead of her family. I don't talk to her, we're not allowed to. I miss her, i miss staying over at her house. I miss going to her place after school, doing face masks, eating cereal and watching netflix. I miss her laughter the most.

Isaac, one of Heathers best friends. He lived in Tampa, we had met him a few times. We'd FaceTime and play video games together almost every week. He didn't like Heather and that boy. But he did like my sister, Kailey. He confessed to her through messages since it was a long distance kind of relationship. They'd talk like every night. Me and him had a love hate relationship, we'd always bicker and he'd always tease me. My sister only said yes to when he confessed and wanted to see where things would take them because she felt bad. But she did fall for him. All of a sudden, he'd stopped texting her. It was like he was a ghost, like he never existed. We had a trip to Universal in a few days with everyone. This was all before Heather was expelled. The little trip included Isaac,Heather,Jonathan,Katherine,Kailey, and me. Kailey was excited, she had this vision in her head. An amusement park date, she would hold hands with him and maybe even kiss him at the end of the night. He ignored her the whole day. She looked sad, like she was on the verge of tears. I took notice of it but i thought maybe she just wasn't feeling well.

We'd stopped to get some food and refreshments. Everyone else went to go get some coffee, while i stayed with Jonathan and Isaac. It was hard to keep my mind away from Jonathan, everything he'd do would make my head spin with birds. It was as if he was a prince in my eyes. Us three stayed to get some pretzels. I took a seat while they ordered their food. Jonathan seemed out of it the whole day. He was always texting on his phone. It wasn't hard to tell that he was texting Kiara. All. The. Time. Once they finished we started heading back to where everyone else was. Two cups of cinnamon pretzels were on each side of me, i could see them just extend towards me. They smelled like heaven. "Here get some" Jonathan said. Okay. Relax. He just wants to give you some food, heart, relax. "No wait here, have some" Isaac said, left of me. Oh my god, i have to guys wanting to give me food. I laugh in my head, it was a funny situation. They were both bickering saying that i should eat from theirs instead of the other. I took some from both, it was amazing, melted on my tongue. The night ended, everyone was happy, we said goodbye. But Kailey, didn't get her kiss.

Heather had told Kailey that she heard from one of her friends that Isaac didn't like her anymore. It all ended badly. Long messages were sent. Kailey was heartbroken. All by the boy who liked her first.

I never thought i would miss Isaac. All the mean words he'd say to me, even if he was joking. I miss him so much, like sometimes i can't breathe when i think of him. Where did it all go wrong? It feels like everyone is leaving. My world is falling apart, it's changing. What happened? What happened to the happy stupid little things? The no worries, i miss it. I've lost the people i loved. Love, i blame it on you. Maybe i'll just stop loving. And so i did. I stopped believing in love and that it existed. I turned like fire, someone would talk to me or touch me and i'd burn them. My words would kill when i was mad. I didn't mean any of it. I just thought that if i didn't care about anything or anyone, i wouldn't love. Love wouldn't be next to me , and that's what i wanted. I thought that if i didn't love, i wouldn't lose anyone else.

Jonathan was hard to stop "loving". I don't think i ever really did. It was impossible to stop. Especially when he'd treat me like the only girl in the world. The way he would hug me is imprinted in my mind. His arms would hold me tightly and he'd pick me up and spin me around. He'd kiss the top of my head. My heart failed me. I was in disbelief that he did that. I thought i was going crazy and I imagined it. But i didn't, it was true , it was all real, even my love for him. Slowly, i could feel the difference. It sounds weird, but i felt the way his arms would wrap around me was not the same. He didn't hold on like he used to. Like if he was scared id fly away. He just hugs me for a second, loosely and quickly. I tried not to take notice of it, but how could i not? Especially, when i pay to every little detail when it comes to him.

Jonathan and I would always play around. He'd mess around with me and i'd say he's annoying. He'd do it a lot, and i loved it. The attention he gave me was amazing. I had learned to say i hated him for the way he was acting around us recently. I would always rant about it to Kailey. Kailey never knew, that i still liked Jonathan. She thought i stopped liking him when i told her i did. Which was when I was seven. I would so seriously say i hated him. I was only fooling myself because every time i would see him. And he'd do something to mess around with me. I'd say i hate him, with a smile on my face. As if my heart was ignited, with something i didn't want anymore.