𝘌𝘯𝘨𝘭𝘦𝘸𝘰𝘰𝘥 𝘉𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘩

Chapter Nine | Living on

As the days and months flew by. The strawberry fields missed him. My bed missed him. He had started to drift away even more. He was changing. Personality changed so quickly. He wouldn't pay attention at all to us. So we moved on. I moved on, tried not to pay attention or any mind to him. Went on trips, to Europe. Spain greeted me with a warm welcome. Felt so nice to escape from home. The change of scenery was necessary. New flavors on my tongue. Paris was a dream, it felt unreal. I could never forget it. When we got back home we rested up until our other trip. This summer was unforgettable, which surprises me because Kathrine and Jonathan weren't with us. Life was okay and it wasn't falling apart when they weren't there. I had always thought everything, every experience needed to be with them. I was so attached, and i finally felt myself let go.

Alaska was freezing, it froze my thoughts, all my thoughts. All my worries and anxiousness, everything. It felt like free drug. The people i was with made me incredibly happy. I was starting to enjoy life like i never had before. It was eye opening. Went to concerts and felt the music pump my blood. I didn't want to go home. Seattle was my new home. I felt like i belonged there. When i actually got home, i felt homesick, i missed Seattle so much.

That summer, i met two new people, which are now one of my closest friends. Lilith and Adam. They were kind of like Katherine and Jonathan. Except, Lilith was the oldest, she was beautiful, dark hair and dark eyes. She was like Audrey Hepburn in my eyes. Adam, was the youngest, he was tall. Like huge, taller than Jonathan. He has big dark down turned eyes and big lips. They're both a little out of it, they got ADHD. Their mind is always bouncing and wandering. But they were the last missing puzzle piece in my life and i love them. We hung out and got along immediately. They had the same sense of humor as all of us. Our little friend group was me, Kailey, and her friend Melody, Lilith and Adam. It took awhile for me to get comfortable with them. Especially Adam, he always thought i was mean,cold and serious by the resting look on my face. Lilith and I got along like best friends. Like we were the only people who understood each other. We shared everything with each other, our deepest secrets. Thankfully, me and Adam got closer. I finally let myself open up a bit. After losing everyone i loved, i closed myself off and trusted no one. Why trust when in the end they just leave? But i shook off that thought and decided to just live in the moment and freely.

Somehow, November always has interesting things going on. It was Kailey's graduation brunch. She had graduated earlier that year. We had invited Lilith and Adam but they weren't able to make it. We also invited Jonathan and Katherine but they said they wouldn't be able to make it either due to some other plans. It was raining and we were waiting for our table. Once we got in, we sat down and started ordering our food. Then out of no where, i see Katherine and her family walk in, along with Jonathan and Kiara. I was confused and my mind was filled with memories and so much. Jonathan had walked through that door and somehow might heart still managed to skip a beat when i saw him. Turns out their plans got canceled due to the rain and they decided to come here with us. I wasn't really glad that they were here. It felt like they decided to come since we were just a second option. Who knows? We exchanged gifts and ate our food. Took photos with Kailey. And like that the night came to an end. Nothing happened.

December defrosted and met us. Christmas lights were hung up on every house. It was Katherine's parent's anniversary and Kiara's parents were throwing a surprise party for them. Somehow, they invited us. My mom knew that Katherine's dad did not want a party, he was tired of them already. These people would throw parties for everything.

I got dressed, did my hair and makeup. I felt pretty. We drove to their house and everything was filled with food and gifts. They greeted us and we saw the table inside. They had names on each seat. Assigned seats. Okay, i was a bit nervous to see where i was seated. But no, my name was nowhere to be found. Not mine nor Kailey, not even Katherine's. Jonathan and Kiara were seated inside, i was a bit annoyed by that. The rest of the kids, the young people i guess you could say, sat outside in the backyard. The party went on, they surprised Katherine's parents, we ate the food, watched a movie. Jonathan barely talked to us, he was slowly becoming less and less recognizable, like a stranger. We said bye to everyone and the night ended just like that.

Later in December, me and Kailey were sitting on the counter stools eating dinner. My mom was on couch in the living room watching TV, she gets a call. It's Jonathan. I turn my attention to my mom, ears wide open and eyes looking at my mom and her movements. She put the call on speaker. They talked for a bit just catching up, and then there it was. "Well, i was calling because im going to do it, im going to propose." he spoke through the phone. My heart shattered like glass. Me and my family would always ask each other if we ever thought them two would get married, it was a discussion filled with yes and no's. But it's really happening. "I wanted you guys to be there, as well as the girls. It's in Colorado, Kiara's dream has always been to get proposed to in the snow." he kept on talking. My head spinning with way too many things. He sent pictures to my mom of the engagement ring. She showed it to us, and told him that she would have to get back to him and talk about it with us. The call ended, and it felt like my dreams and fantasies did too.

Me and Kailey didn't want to go, just for a proposal. Waste money just for that? I didn't want to go because i know it would be pricey and i didn't want to witness the proposal. But deep down i wanted to see him. That was the only reason. We planned the trip, and we went with some friends of ours. We took a plane and got the hell out of Florida. Hello, heartbreaking Colorado.