toxic

betrayal

i'm so sick of this life. like, really. dad came here, in this fucking house, to do the monthly check. me and max are treated like we are kids anymore.

can i live a second and this man to not complain for the fact that i can breathe?

and the worse part is that norris' ass was to annoy me the rest of the day. ugh, i would die to get these assholes out of my life.

now, i'm in the bathroom, crying like someone loved died. it actually did. my love for my dad. in all these 21 years, i never hated my dad. i loved my dad even when he forced me to do ballet or slapped me each time i wasn't good enough.

but today, i found out that i'm not his beloved daughter like he said. i'm adopted. i'm fucking adopted. and i think that max and victoria knew about this, which made me the worthless piece of shit on this planet. the people i thought they were my family lied to my face.

and the worst thing is that jos lied to me that my mother died. that me and max don't have the same mother.

i don't even know who my real parents are. what if they're dead? what if they don't want me?

i hear the bathroom door opening, making me look directly at the door. norris.

"what do you want?"

"have you been crying, love?"

"no. can you please leave?"

"i can easily tell when you're lying, darling. what's up? what made your pretty eyes water?"

shit, he's talking so sweetly to me now, makes me forget that i hate him, or i should.

"it's a long story. i don't think you wanna hear it"

"please, i want to. i'm actually desperate to find out"

he's not being sarcastic, which surprises me.

"well, remember how everyone thought that i'm blood related with max and jos?"

"yeah, aren't you?"

"i'm not, lando. i'm adopted. these people lied to me for 20 years. jos adopted me at 1 year old. i- i don't know what to do. i feel like i don't belong anywhere now. why am i even here? i'm not in this family"

"love, you are a part of that family. i know that you feel betrayed and you might not want to talk to max or jos ever. but even if they're not blood related to you, jos is still your father in the certificate and max is your brother. you would have rather stay in an adoption center and then at 18 years old, if you were not adopted, to live on the streets? i'm sorry, darling, but it's a better life you have then to live on the fucking street"

"but to live with so much lies? you're making this worse than it is, norris. please, leave"

he sighs and walks out of the bathroom, closing the door. i bust out in tears. all the questions go through my mind.

why didn't my parents want me anymore? what happened to them? why did jos adopt me?

end of chapter 5

heyy sorry for not posting. i'm busy with school.

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