LOST

Thirty

Wednesday 24th December.
New York,
Monet house hold.

Haydee

It's Christmas Eve! I've never celebrated Christmas before but the boys seem very happy about it. Mum never let me because she said I wasn't 'worthy of presents.'

These last few weeks have been strangely normal. I've still been getting some nightmares about the past and Alexsandr.

My brothers or dad haven't mentioned what I told Michael that night.

I mean I'm kind of glad because talking about it messes with my brain. I get so confused. I feel like all the years I was there have been mushed up into one.

And continuously thinking about those things is making me forget basic things. Can you believe I forgot one of my brothers names yesterday?

They all act like they'd kind of worried but it's most likely an act right? Like mum said.

Aria has been over a few times but usually when I'm home alone and we've gotten closer! I think she's my first friend.

"Haydee go get the chocolate chips from the pantry please." Cedric saying stirring the brownie batter.

Apparently it was a tradition in our family for two of the kids to make all the Christmas treats and guess who got chosen this year..me!! And Cedric.

I found them easily since I didn't really have to read anything. It had a picture of them on the packaging.

"Can we make cookies aswell?" I asked with a hopeful look in my eyes. I was really craving cookies.

"Sure..why don't we bake brookies?" He suggested. Brookies?

"Brownies and cookies in one." He explained seeing my confused face. I nodded liking the sound of that.

"Haydee." Cedric called out after I got lost in thought. I hummed in reply.

"Can you read me the ingredients please?" No I cannot actually.

My face reddened as i tried to read the cook book infront of me.

"I-erm 2 eggs...and b- can you read?" He asked cutting me off. Well that was quite rude wasn't it.

"Yeah? I'm not stupid." I scoffed knowing damn well I could not read.

"That wouldn't mean you're stupid Haydee but go on..read me the ingredients."

I stood there feeling my body get warm. Why's he putting me on the spot like this.

"I'm not here to judge you dee dee." He spoke breaking the silence.

"I'm not stupid." I said walking out of the kitchen. It wasn't that obvious that I couldn't read. I could read but I just struggled with it. Im not stupid right?

"Aren't you meant to be helping Cedric in the kitchen?" Of course I had to bump into Lucien right now.

"It's really none of your business is it?" I say walking past him. Well..almost. He stopped me by gripping my arm.

"Watch it." He gritted through his teeth holding a firm grip on my arm.

I nodded not having the mental capacity to deal with his bull crap right now.

He let go and I hurried off to my bedroom until I got called down to celebrate the day before Christmas. I didn't know people did that.

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(I'm changing mikhails name to Alexsandr because it's too similar to Michael)
Also guys I'm sorry for this very short update but it was either this or nothing😓 I had exams and have been busy with life and school😊😊