LOST

Twenty nine

Friday 5th December.
New york,
Moneys household
4:25pm

Haydee

I woke up from my sleep very confused. My head hurt and i had dry tear stains on my cheeks. my hair was a mess and overall i just looked like a mess.

What the hell happened? I checked the time to see it was already half past 4.

I slowly got myself up and limped towards my door. I opened it and could hear my brothers and dad all talking amongst themselves.

I made my way downstairs and towards their voices.

"Look who's finally awake!" Michael said with a big smile. He's a bit too happy for my liking.

"Why do I look scruffy." I mutter sitting on the arm chair. My head was throbbing and the lights were too bright. "Can you turn the light off please."

The lights instantly turned off and everyone was staring at me with a look of concern.

"Do you remember what happened before your nap?" Dad asked cautiously. I shook my head no. Did I chased by wolves or something?

"You told us..about Aleksandr." Pardon?

I looked at them all in shock. "I did WHAT?" I startle myself a little.

"Yeah but you said you'd only tell Michael what he did." They explained.

Why don't I remember. Are they tricking me? How would they know what to trick me with if they were?

I thought for a few minutes and all the memories came back.

"I don't want to tell any of you but if it's going to be someone it might aswell be Michael." I mutter.

I wasn't so sure I wanted to tell but I decided I will.

They all left me and Michael alone to have some privacy of course.

"Haydee, I know this may be hard for you but please try your best to tell the truth." He says with a concerned smile.

"Aleksandr tortured me." I start off sitting down on the arm chair with my legs crossed.

"Well that's a way to start." He says. "In what way did he torture you?"

I sucked in a breath before starting.

"Experiments. If I didn't make any improvements he'd punish me. They wanted me to be strong and I wasn't allowed to show any pain or complain."

"He'd beat me, whip me and cut me. He'd do much more but I'd rather not go through that again." I say digging my nails into my wrist.

"What kind of experiments little dee?" He asked with a frown.

"Bad types. They'd inject weird drugs inside of me. Some made me drowsy some made me hyper and some turned me into a whole different person.

I became addicted and they knew that. Sometimes they'd made me to things to get the drugs. I would've done anything for them at the time. Anything Michael." I explained. Thay time of my life was the weakest I have even been.

He nodded and let me continue.

"Alexandr would deprive me of drugs for a few days after keeping me high on them for weeks. I needed them. I felt like I couldn't think or do anything without them Michael they made me kill for drugs. They made me hurt myself for them. I've almost died like 5 times by my own hands."

I heard a gasp and tears fell on my hands. I didn't want to look at him he'd be so disgusted at my actions.

"I didn't want to I swear! They forced me to." I cried looking up at him but he was also crying? "I was under some kind control thing."

"I am so sorry you had to go through all that Haydee."

"I'm not saying things in full detail by the way...i don't remember much when I'm talking about it."

He looks at me confused. "There's more??"

He jumped up from his seat looking furious. "That wasn't all?? What the fuck Haydee! I'm gonna kill that bastard." He yelled making me flinch.

I don't like this. I shouldn't have told them. He's going to kill me.

"I'm sorry little dee. I just have one question is that okay?" I nodded knowing what the question would be.

"Did—did Alexsandr or anyone ever.." there it is.

"Yes." I say not letting him finish his question. It's hard enough to say it nevermind it happening to you.

"Oh gosh." He said with his hand over his mouth. "Can I hug you?" He asks.

He asked me. He asked for my permission before touching me. That meant a lot to me.

I nodded feeling like I did need a hug. I got up and hugged him tightly and cried into his chest. "I didn't want to I promise. They was too strong."

He hugged me tighter. "Nobody's blaming you baby I swear. It wasn't your fault and you don't deserve it."

"Please don't let him get me he's going to kill me." I hiccuped.

"I would let myself die before I let anyone hurt you little dee." He say kissing the top of my head.

"I'm going to have to tell your brothers all this okay? You've told us enough detail for us to guess the rest."

I nodded not wanting to speak enough. My throat and eyes hurt from all this talking and crying.

"You want some food dee? I think it's takeout day."