Just Let Go (Harry Styles)

Chapter Eleven - Thoughts and Feelings

Yey! Getting into the good stuff now! :)

~Sea

Chapter Eleven

~Harry~

What did I just almost do? The question pounded in my head as Zayn speedily approached Kristen and me on the couch.

I almost kissed Kristen. I sat there shocked and unable to move for many seconds. I had felt a cool but sweet chill run down my spine when we touched and I couldn't help it. She emulates such a mysterious and dangerous aura that is so strong the feeling is pulling me to her. I wonder if she knows the affect she has on me... I avoided looking at her by acknowledging Zayn's approach.

"What's up Zayn?"

"You gotta see this! Kristan is already on that internet sleaze site."

He handed Kristen the laptop and her face was covered with horror as her hand covered her mouth.

Her eyes moved a cross the screen reading the article. I was dying to know what she was looking at but didn't want to get close to her. My heart was still pounding in my chest. What am I feeling for her? I recalled earlier how I felt at Trafalgar. I was frustrated that I didn't get to go around with her or be the one to take the pictures for her or jump into one of her selfies... And then what about at Hyde Park? I was jealous! Jealous of Liam, one of my best mates I consider a brother because he was spending time with her... Laughing with her. Why am I like this? I should have gone to the Speakers Corner with her if I was going to end up feeling this way. I'm so messed up in the head. I have to get my feelings straightened out...

".... Her, Harry and Liam, really?" Niall's thick Irish accent pulled me back into the situation.

I pushed my thoughts aside for now. Reminding myself to address them later. I started to listen.

"To this stupid article, yes!" Zayn almost shouted.

"But this doesn't prove anything. Anyone can take a picture and add a caption. It's easy! Everyone does it." Louis said trying to be the logical one.

The laptop was now in the middle of the couch and not near Kristen so I reached forward and took it without looking at her even though I could feel her eyes on me. I rested it on my lap and started reading the article.

Now Magazine: LIAM PAYNE, HARRY STYLES AND KRISTEN BROOKS. DO I SPOT A LOVE TRIANGLE?

"Today sources say they saw Liam and Kristen laughing and strolling through Hyde Park near the Speakers Corner. Surprisingly though earlier this week we had spotted Harry and Kristen eating lunch at El Taco just a few days ago and Monday morning Harry picking her up from the airport. Does that explain why Harry went to find the two in the park? Has Liam forgotten about his ex-Danielle Peazer? Is there a love triangle here and who is this Kristen Brooks and how is she connected to the gorgeous boys of One Direction?"

I cringed at the article. There was a single picture taken of the three of us in the park. I must have drawn the paparazzi to them. I felt sick at the thought...

I looked at Liam who was quiet the whole time. His arms were crossed and his brows furrowed meaning he was deep in thought. Probably thinking about Danielle... Their break up was shocking and it hurt him so much. Nobody knew, but he is still in contact with her trying to change her mind. I wonder what she would think now that a scandal was being made about him within 3 months of their break up.

"I'm gonna head to my Flat," Liam started for the door. "See you later guys." And then he was gone.

"What do you think Danielle is going to say?" Louis said asking no one in particular.

Everyone was quiet. Mentally answering the question in our heads. If she truly loved him she would understand but then what if she feels slightly hurt and says it doesn't matter to her? Its all up in the air with them.

"I'm sorry.." A quiet mumbled escaped from Kristen's mouth. I finally looked at her. Her head was down so I couldn't see her face.

"Awwww hun! This isn't your fault, No need for you to apologize." Louis walked over and gave her a huge friendly hug while giving me the what-is-your-problem look. I shifted a bit feeling uncomfortable. "We deal with this stuff all the time. I'm sure management is going to see it and then negotiating will be done to correct it, so no biggie."

I was starting to feel suffocated sitting in that room. It was dead silent. I couldn't take it anymore and pushed myself off the couch and headed for the exit.

"Heading out I see," Louis caught up to me at the door. He spoke in a whisper so the others couldn't hear. "Where too?"

"A place to think. I need to sort out a few things." I copied the volume of his voice.

He looked at me with an understanding expression on his face. I didn't know if he knew what he was really understanding, but it was something since He motioned to the door telling me to go. I thanked him mentally as I left. Yep! count on your best mate to always be there for you.

I got in my car and sped off enjoying the acceleration of it. I drove for a while just relaxing and losing the tension, but then of course my mind then drifted back to Kristen. Beautiful and amazing Kristen who I have known a week almost and yet my feelings are all jumbled and confused.

Why am I feeling this way? She's

an escort. Some chick I called to pretend to be my girlfriend to get that bromance crap away from me. Is she something more though? I pondered this for a moment, pulling back the feeling in the apartment, on the bus and at the taco shop. I wanted to kiss her. I was content holding her hand. I enjoyed eating lunch with her. She is reserved and doesn't talk about herself which makes her mysterious... A puzzle to be put together.

Just then my phone started ringing. Safely pulling over I stopped to answer it.

"Hello Simon!" I put some cheeriness in my greeting.

"Harry, I saw the scandal of you, Liam and Kristen today." Man, he gets straight to the point. "Now I understand you want to do this, but little things like that must be avoided."

"Yes sir." Was all I said in reply.

"Now I have arranged an interview with Now Magazine tomorrow afternoon. All they want is a story and that is what they shall get. Hope you are ready to go fully public with your Miss, Harry. Tomorrow everyone will be anticipating what the real truth here is."

When I didn't say anything, he continued. "That is all I have. Good luck with everything alright, Champ? Don't let this get you down." I smiled.

"Thanks, Simon." I ended the call. Simon has been such a great mentor ever since the X Factor. I wouldn't know what I'd do without him.

I sat there at the side of the road for a long minute. I realized I am becoming emotionally attached to someone I'll never see again after these next few Weeks. She's an escort and I am paying her to be here. I'm now doing something I should have mentally done before she even arrived. Set my terms.

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I just loved creating this scandal! Now I see why others do it (not really) it was fun!

Till next time!

~Sea