angeline (2)

healed

angeline

"is there anything new?" i ask the nurse who is checking eddie's fluids.

"everything looks good. theres no reason to worry as of right now." he responds with a soft smile.

bobby let me stay here with eddie as the team finishes their shift.

christopher is with carla and evan until eddie can come home, that way hes not alone.

i feel awful. if only i hadnt gone on a scavenger hunt and found out what that woman was doing to charlie, we wouldnt be here right now.

but then comes the other side. the rational side. charlie deserved to be saved. with this sniper, it would have only been a matter of time until one of us got shot.

-

"damn it, evan!" i yell, practically running up to the living area in the firehouse. "why the hell would you put your life in danger by climbing that construction site?!"

"angeline, ive already been lectured, i dont need to be told again." he rolls his eyes.

"no, you dont understand what im saying." i scoff. "i have been sitting in the hospital with the love of my life all day. then you decide to put yourself in a high risk situation, where it could be you lying in that bed!"

"i get it." he sighs.

"no you dont." i breathe out. "you never do until its too late. you could have died today because of your stupidity."

"i had to help him. he was going to die without help!" he stands, catching the attention of everyone as he shouts back.

"what about you, damnit!? you have no consideration for yourself, or anyone else around you. you put not only yourself, but that man in more danger because you were up there. eddie being shot was not your fault. i understand that you feel like you should have been able to stop it, but you need to get yourself together before you go out there again. youre going to get yourself or someone else killed."

-

"ann," i hear eddie rasp.

"eddie!" i gasp, rushing over to the bed and wrapping my arms carefully around him.

he slowly wraps his arms around me as well, breathing shallowly.

"thank you, ann. for everything." he says softly, nuzzling his face in my shoulder.

"oh, baby, no need to thank me." my brows furrow as i pull away.

"no, between making me happy and christopher, youre everything to me. i mean, you saved me today. thank you." his eyes well up.

i feel my heart break as tears roll down his face. i sit next to him on the bed and cup his cheeks, wiping away the tears.

"i was so scared, you know?" he sniffles. "i had a minute where i thought i was back in the army. my conrads surrounding me. but then you brought me back."

i nod, allowing him to express his feelings without interruption.

"not only was i scared for me, i was terrified for you. i mean, you were out in the open too. the whole team was. any of you could have gotten shot with me." his chin quivers.

"no one else got hurt, eds. its okay. we are okay. you are okay." i smile, resting my head against his. "i love you, honey."

"i love you, too."

-

eddie has been discharged from the hospital.

evan is now officially in his will as the person to take on christopher if he dies. well, save for me if we work out or i also die.

we threw a welcome home party for eddie and celebrated his bravery.

but something still seems off with him.

i think him being shot has brought back several memories he doesnt want to relive, and now he is being forced to. im not going to push it untik he is ready to walk about it, though.

bobby has allowed me to stay home with eddie as he heals.

thats how we ended up laying in bed together, panting.

"i had to show you i was healed." eddie laughs.

i laugh softly and snuggle into his chest, letting out a content sigh.

"im so happy youre okay. that really scared me, you know?" i glance up at his face.

"i know, baby. im sorry." he kisses my head.

"its not your fault, dont ever think im telling you that. i was so scared i shut down. i wasnt able to process anything until i had come home and talked to chris. i kind of lost it with him, if im honest." my brows furrow.

"its okay. im glad you both trust each other enough to have that conversation and to be vulnerable around each other." i nod at his words.

"anyways, away from that topic before i cry, how about we turn on a show and get some sleep?" i smile up at him and he chuckles, nodding.

i reach over him and grab the remote and turn something on before snuggling back up to him.

-

two weeks later

eddie and i are back at work as of today.

evan and eddie are playing pool while bobby cooks. i hope up on the counter and hen is seated at one of the chairs.

"dear god, bobby, what is that smell?" i question, nausea bubbling in my stomach.

"its just sushi. are you feeling okay?" he says, placing a hand on my shoulder with a fatherly expression.

"im gonna throw up," i shake my head, running towards the bathroom down the hall.

as soon as i make it to the toilet, everything i have eaten is coming back up.

i hear the bathroom door open behind me as i had no time to lock it before emptying my stomach.

"you alright?" i hear hen ask as she leans on the ground beside me.

"yeah, the smell just really set me off, i guess. im okay, i pomise." i smile weakly.

"okay, i just wanted to come check on you." she smiles back.

i quickly rinse my mouth with water and dig in the cabinets for mouthwash ive left here the past few months.

"actually," she pauses. "are you sure youre not pregnant?"

my brows furrow immediately in shock. "yeah, i mean matt destroyed my uterine wall. i was told i would never be able to have a baby."

"well, this is a very common symptom of pregnancy. typically, you can still carry a baby with a torn uterine wall. it all depends on how bad it was." she rubs my back.

"oh," i whisper. "i mean, i havent had a period this month, but i thought it was just the stress of eddie getting shot."

"that very well may be true. but i would take a test to be positive, okay?" i nod.

"eddie would be ecstatic. i mean before we got together i told him i wouldnt be able to carry a baby and so we havent been using protection as often as we should. but if i really am pregnant, im not giving it up. ive wanted a baby ever since matt stole mine from me. please dont tell anyone about this until i can."

"i understand, ange. take some time to think about it." she pats my shoulder before stepping out of the bathroom.

what if i am pregnant? all of my hopes and dreams were destroyed when i found out i had lost my baby and would never be able to have one again. this would be my rainbow baby.

after shift, im going to get a test and go from there.