angeline (2)

the truth

angeline

i told eddie i would go out to grab some food and used it as a way to get the test without making him suspicious.

i dont want to tell him until i know for sure if i am pregnant or not so i dont get his hopes up.

so as im waiting for the food i called in to get ready, i stopped at the store and am now inside the bathroom waiting on the alarm to go off so i can look to see.

after the painstakingly slow three minutes, i take a deep breath and turn the test over.

pregnant

"oh my god." i whisper, tears immediately welling in my eyes.

im going to have a baby.

almost as if it was second nature, i place a hand on my belly. theres a baby inside of me.

maybe matt didnt ruin me as bad as i thought.

i quickly pull myself together and stick the test in my pocket, cleaning up after myself before heading to the food place.

after picking up out food, i make my way home. as i sit in the parked car, i place my hand over my baby once again.

"we are going to go tell your daddy, baby."

i grab the food and lock the car, opening the front door.

"hey, sweetheart." eddie greets me with a kiss.

"hey." i smile.

i set the food on the counter and take a shaky breath.

christopher is out with a friend tonight once again. i think he likes her, but im going to stay out of it for now.

"you okay?" eddie asks, placing his hands on my hips and pulling me into him slightly.

"yeah," i smile.

"you sure?" his head tilts as he scans my face.

"truth is," i hold my breath and take out the test from my pocket. "eddie, im pregnant."

his jaw drops as he takes the test into his hands.

"i thought you said you couldnt have kids after matt?" he questions, a bright smile on his face.

"yeah, thats what the doctor told me. hen told me that it is still a possibility after i threw up earlier. i listened and took a test." i laugh.

"oh my god, baby. this is amazing. im so happy, i-i dont even know what to say."

"dont say anything. just kiss me." and he does.

out lips lock together like it was our first kiss all over again.

and in some sense, it is. its out first kiss into this new chapter of our family.

when i run out of breathe, i pull back and lean my head against his.

"i always thought that matt had ruined my body completely." i begin. "that after the baby i lost, i would never be able to carry a child of my own again. but i came to the realization when i was taking this test, that he has ruined me way less than i thought he had. and now we're here. were going to have a little baby joining our family."

"i love you, baby. so, so much. i was never here for christopher's pregnancy since i was deployed, but im going to be here for this one." he smiles, a tear rolling down his cheek as his hand comes in contact with my stomach.

seeing his own tears set mine off and im soon a mess.

i cant believe we're having a baby.

-

"what did you guys want to talk about?" bobby asks, sitting on his couch.

we had popped over to his house after eating dinner to inform him, that way he knows as our captain.

"so, we just found out that im pregnant." i grin.

"oh my god, thats amazing! im so happy for you guys." he stands and hugs us both.

"we just wanted to tell you so you were aware. we dont want anyone else to know until its a safe time to do so." eddie says.

"i understand completely. your secret is safe with me." a throat is cleared behind us. "and athena."

athena comes over and gives us both tight hugs, congratulating us.

"did you guys eat anything yet? dinners about to be ready. youre welcome to stay!" she offers.

"we ate right before we came over, thank you though." i tell her with a smile. "we should get going. we've got a long night of relishing in this new reality thats going to happen."

"of course. have a good night you guys. and congratulations again." athena says warmly.

"agreed. congrats you two." bobby smiles and with a few more hugs we're out the door.

the whole way home we sing along to the radio, eddies hand on my leg.

when we do get home, we change into our pjs. mine consists of one of eddie's shirts and my underwear and his a pair of black sweatpants.

i slip under the covers and let out a yawn. a few minutes later, eddie comes over and slides into the bed as well.

i move over and lay on his chest. he kisses my head and lays his hand on my stomach again.

"i really cant believe we're having a baby." he smiles happily.

"me either." i say, placing my hand on top of his. "to think, in a few weeks ill start showing. then it will really kick in."

"god, im too impatient. nine months is way too long." he groans.

i let out a laugh and kiss his chest.