I'm not a baby!

Time to escape

I wake up from a very loud yelling sound. "Wake up you bitches, you fucking waste of space " and that was Jeremy...yea..yea.. Jeremy... Jeremy is a son of a our orphanage's principle he's been one of the rudest people i have ever had to deal with , stupid spoiled kid. I was slowly getting up from my bed , stretching out , slightly yawning when suddenly he started kicking my legs yelling at me to move faster. But i really didn't care , well i cared but there was nothing i could do about it.He would always beat the shit out of me , call me the rudest words he could come up with , give me and most kids out here different sort of commands and those would be very humiliating. We were like toys he'd play with , especially me. Like once he and his gang told me to clean the whole toilet with my tongue which is insane i never did that for what i was badly beaten up and got a hanging wedgie , if id complain  nobody would listen to me and on top of that I would be threatened , and i really didn't want to be beaten harder , so I'd stay quiet every time i would be humiliated. Well for real who'd listen to a random orphan kid when there is someone with higher status. Now I'm going down through stairs rushing into the toilet, emptying myself since i haven't done it since yesterday. After im done with washing my hands I'm now looking into the mirror, well at least i look good I think to myself i really like my brown chocolate eyes though i wouldn't mind to have brighter eye colour and for some reason I'm very down i really need to get off this place i think to myself, i didn't have this thought like a second ago and now i have it again it's just I hate it to be in here , i need to get off and start a new life , I'm old enough to live by myself, but those idiots won't let me go . Ahh god i hate it when i have mood swings i easily get angry sigh *with those thoughts im heading to the dining room through a huge corridor and surprisingly there is  no single soul...ah wow where is everybody...i sat down on one of the chairs and i  heard footsteps coming closer and closer, every time i hear footsteps it gives me goosebumps , i feel very very anxious and suddenly it's Ms. Ann ufff I'm relieved "Good morning Ms. Ann" - i say to her "Good morning Joseph how did you sleep sweetheart "-she tells me. Ms . Ann is the person who watches out for kids in here .Honestly she's the only person that makes me want to stay in this place but no I'm not staying i made the decision earlier i will leave sooner or later. "Not bad thank you Ms. Ann" - i tell her " Umm. Ms. Ann where is um everybody?" I nicely ask her "Ahh Joseph i forgot to tell you most of those kids were adopted couple of months ago it's just now when all the documents are done their new parents are ready to pick them up" -she says . " Wtf there were like 16 kids and all of them are adopted now in less than 2 months and yet nobody wants me , whatever i don't need to be adopted huh"- i say impatiently. Ms.Ann  gave me an empathetic look which i hate the most it made me look pathetic and right after she gave me a small hug which i couldn't stand  so i got off the chair immediately and ran away getting up through stairs towards the bed i was sleeping earlier.i hopped in my bed and was laying there desperately , that was not fckin fair . My eyes started tearing up ,tears were going down my face, cheeks turning bright red. I really needed a comfort but the fact that nobody wants me or loves me would make me feel way worse so i bent over and got the little bear under my bed i had him for all those year i spent in here , my little Woody . I named him myself when i was 9 , though he would actually give me all the comfort i needed it still was not enough....and plus i was still very Hungry because I missed lunch time earlier went to sleep without lunch..but now i also didn't have dinner, with all those thoughts not so long enough i fell asleep
       7 hours later
I woke up my head is spinning probably because I'm hungry and i feel a little nauseous... fine not  little , pretty nauseous . I got up from bed to see that it got pretty dark outside i bent over to the table where we have a table clock to see it was nearly  1 am i... slept a lot ...I came closer to the window to just watch the beautiful dark sky like i do for every night before going to bed i watch the little bright lights that so far away from here , they are like little stars in a huge space, and  look at the huge gate where i see 2 enormously strong security guys every night, wait a minute .... security guys ...where are they? . Usually i see them watching the gates for every night ,huh that was weird. Where are  those tough guys. I guess they probably decided to take a break since most of those troublemakers are gone now , wait a second does that mean  I can finally escape from this stupid place , ah wow what an opportunity. Though i should not get caught cuz then I'll loose the trust and will be taken into observation where they will be constantly watching me ,without thinking much  I happily started packing up my things in my little bag , i also had some cash that we were given here by some charities. I easily climbed down the window , since the distance between the window and ground was not huge and ran towards the gate as fast as i could, i slowly got over the gate and ran, ran as if i have never ran before. I think i felt Freedom... is this a freedom?