A beautiful lesson

Chapter 1 - 7th grade

During my 7th grade i was so excited going to a new school and especially to one of the most prestigious schools here in our city and i admit that when i was in elementary being the center of the attention because of my skin color i have fair skin i was in a public school 4-6 grade, and it did gave me pride and messed up my way of thinking yes i know it sounds rascist but thats how it goes really thats why i kinda did hated myself once the realizations kicked in

And when school finally started i was nervous i didnt know how my life would go, i didnt have anyone to talk to since most of them were people who already know each other either by family connections and that were in the same school before so i didnt really fit in right...

So i was desperate i hope there are others who can relate to this feeling like not wanting to be isolated from the others i wanted to make friends and emjoy highschool life im not really a quiet person i like people and socializing to those who are the same vibes as me, i did became friends with this girl lets call her Red she was kind and nice to talk to as she was also boyish like me, we became friends because of our Last name in alphabetical we were seated next to each other

At start it was going great but as time goes on my behaviours were different, here when i was in elementary i was doing great in academics i was focused and i cared i really did about school, i dont like being late i also didnt like cutting classes and even being absent you could say obssesive? perfectionist? But thats how i was, but when i met Red everything changed of course i didnt notice i went on

I changed myself to fit in and thats my mistake...i hope others wouldnt do what i did

Red was lets say she wasnt a person who cares much about her performance at school and she constantly gets in trouble

Whenever we would eat lunch well she wouldnt bother to eat really so i also didnt, we either just get a drink of any or a snack like fries and thats not me i love eating and well i love foods in general, but that went on, i felt like i wasnt gonna be okay without her i thought that its only her that i consider my close friend because i didnt make any since i didnt really fit in well i couldnt be my true self because i was too scared i wouldnt be accepted, i lost myself more because i also lost contact with my elementary friends, and when we met they were off with me because i noticed that my Pride was affecting the mood and we didnt feel like we were on the same level at all and that was just one time because of a birthday party

I did see and noticed that Red isnt all bad yes being influenced to things i swore ill never do but, she helps kids we met two people, they were siblings an older brother and younger sister they were adorable and well they were homeless and we give them food and some money too i also remember Red saying we should get them slippers as she noticed that the kids were wearing worn off slippers, so we saved up and bought them slippers it was near christmas if i remember right

She didnt want me to tell it to anyone that she has a soft spot for kids...

When i lost my lunch money Red also bought me something to eat, see she is kind

I saw the good and it blinded me from the bad

She was with this dude lets call this dude Blue and they were on and off, Blue pursued her and they were together such a cute couple they would eat lunch together they did hug and Blue even gave her gifts and Reds mom also knew about Blue, while she did love Blue i also did aggres to be someones girlfriend...lets call him White i thought being with him would get me out of my situation but i guess it became worse? Well atleast for me it goes like this

I thought i wouldnt fall but i did, he was kind to me when i was alone since Red was absent i was eating lunch alone he made his friends sit with me because he had something to do and he didn't want me to be alone so he did that, once i have became his girlfriend he was lovely, before he used to tease me all the time he would really really test my patience but we were good friends, but i notice changes, found out he made someone fall for him for money... that is cheating? Idk then i also caught him that he had a girlfriend while confessing and pursuing me.. i wasn't aware i was a "kabet" or in english "the other woman" then the last thing was when he started getting cold and he doesn't say I love you anymore, he was actually liking someone else from another school and he broke up with me a day before the lockdown because of Covid-19 of course i was heartbroken, i cried a lot? For a week or so

Now back to Red, i didnt know she was a cheater...

Ive helped her pursue someone while being in a relationship with Blue and made me feel so guilty im not familliar with that kind of things but i did my best to cover it up since Blue talks to me, i cant believe that i did help Red do those things

I think it went well?

They broke up and Red chose the new person lets call this new person Green

And u wont believe what happens next...