A beautiful lesson

Chapter 3 - Mistake

1st year together

When we first started talking to each other after confessing it was awkward very awkward but it worked out, and it went smoothly really yeah we didn't have much to talk about and our conversation are pretty dry but we managed, wasn't much but we get by, we did call it was quiet but we do talk a little like small talks nothing more, our calls would lasts hours, he would also asked me to join him in a call with his discord friends and it is where i met his close friend lets call him Lego, lego has a girlfriend who would also be part of the call she was very pretty and funny

I see that Lego and Green are good friends, our first year together it went on fast i didn't even notice we were together that long, and i didn't expect myself to have a relationship longer than months, i realized i love him even though we didn't meet f2f yet

2nd year together

This year was second most messy of our year together...

I was very well in despair because i was isolated and since its pandemic it's understandable that i don't go out because of the circumstances, i almost did kill myself.. i attempted but i failed

I say it was a good thing, and well because It was month of July where i was allowed to go out with my elementary friends, I met my cousin after years of not meeting each other, same age, we were very close, and also we are classmates 4-6 grade

And it sparked something in me, to have a reunion with my friends

So i chatted my friend lets call her Clouds and asked her "can we meet"

And thats where it all started..

I regained what ive lost, i was myself again i really became truly happy and found out that i missed out on so much fun

We meet almost everyday and the circle was still intact even after years of no communication

But destiny has a different plan for me

I became very close again to a friend of mine from elementary lets call him Mint and Green became jealous of that man

But it wasn't revealed yet, i found out he was jealous like when we actually met f2f

And then well i got stuck between choosing a friend or choosing Green, its either losing friendship or someone im in a relationship with

But of course i chose green although i was going to decide i would choose none before things gets more messy

I know for a certain i wanted a future with Green thats why i still made a choice

And comes F2f

First meeting with Green it was awkward we were trying to find a room for a friend of mine

But failed but at least we got a bonding

We ate lunch together for the first time and i took pictures of him of course why not

As time passes by we do eat lunch but i eat lunch more with my two friends who are also my classmates, it was very unexpected knowing we are also classmates in 7th grade but we weren't close and our vibes towards each other are very different, at start i do eat lunch with him but along with his friends i never felt so uncomfortable and like a display but i kept my mouth shut, it was only because of four people that i manage to get through excluding Green of course, Lego, and three others

And well that became a problem

We argued a lot I understand that it was wrong that i wasn't able to have lunch with him but it was because i never felt like i fit in with his friends it was too different and awful especially around Peppa lets call her Peppa her energy are all over the place and it stinks well at least for me and a friend of mine and many other people because a lot of talks have been going around at first i thought it was just me turns out there was a lot of us

I never told anyone and i never told Green because they were close

Oh and i could feel energy because i didn't believe about those and ghosts but then well got proven to me they are real really made me experience a bunch of stuff that i didn't believe and then boom i had a normal childhood thats why im confused why now anyways back to the story

It was like i was in battle of the energy emitted every single time its why i was silent unless im being talked by Green or some of his Friends

Some people doesn't know that when they aren't all that innocent they emit a strong kind of aura but heaviness is what it can make a person feel, even with all that kindness in actions and in face don't let them deceive you "Eyes can lie with the intentions it hides" eyes are very powerful weapon to deceive a person, u could tell someone has different intention with the energy although i still tried to ignore that every time and give out hope that they would change but im always proven they cant change

Peppa is a GBF "malagkit" tried to ignore that too because well i trust Green of course didn't know that girl has broken a lot of relationships in their circle maybe she is proud of that her talent maybe?

Anyways i did felt like i wasn't enough for Green that i lack a lot...because of arguments we had

We do have fun times laughing and we did kiss, hug and held hands and that felt so right and calming

But it wasn't enough for him either and at the same time he was also scared to get caught? We weren't allowed PDA in our school

Sometimes i really don't understand his moods

Prom wasn't great either well other than i got so stressed because of research because i was a leader it also became a test of our friendship we almost got broken up and prom we weren't okay

And even thought we are together green really didn't asked me to dance because he was scared of getting caught by his family well prom sucked at least i got photos thats one thing good about that

Retreat well idk nothing really interesting happened except that we cried of course a lot well he was not with us cause others section so yeah

Ill end it here for now