What if I'm just confused
And tryna squeeze into
A box, is my identity a ruse?
Hardly any representatives
To help me find my place in this
I'm on a spectrum
I don't even understand.
Spending all this time sifting through labels with different meanings.
Is the real reason I'm like this
Just a byproduct or trauma
Am I just someone with repressed feelings?
Why don't I feel things?
Why don't I feel things?
Hardly any representatives
To help me find my place in this.
I'm on a spectrum I don't even understand
Spending all this time questioning my every feeling.
What do they mean?
If it's trauma then why can I relate.
To wondering about why the world seems to fixate
On the importance of a lover
The longing for a crush.
Forcing yourself to have feelings for someone you'd never even wanna touch.
To loving someone in my head
But wanting nothing more if ever confronted.
And no one takes you seriously
Cause how could you possibly
Be happy
Attraction is mandatory and you are lacking.
To be on this spectrum is such an invalid thing.
