The Girlfriend: Fake It Till You Make It

Chapter 11: Conflicted Emotions

Emily

As we walked away from Ryan, it felt like my knees were about to buckle. I glanced at Jordan who had a smile on her face.

Oh my god! I just kissed Jordan! And it wasn't just a peck either. It was lilke my first real kiss. What does Jordan think? Kill me. Kill me now.

I could feel the heat rising in my head till it was hitting the tips of my ears. I could just die from embarrassment.

"J..Jordan? I'm really sorry about that...I...Um?" I was lost for words. I only now noticed that I was still holding Jordan's hand. Her smooth, adorable hand. Wait, what?

"So, Em? Was that like, your first real kiss?" Jordan asked, as she put a finger to her lips.

"Yes." I was almost ready to cry now.

"Not bad."

I looked at Jordan in surprise. There are those damn butterflies again. And what is going on with this heart of mine? It feels like I'm going to have a heart attack.

Jordan then lent toward me.. I could feel her breath on the side of my face and smell that scent of vanilla.

"Too cute." she whispered in my ear. She then stood up straight and walked in the direction of her next class. "Later, babe."

I lent against the nearby wall, because if I didn't I was sure I was going to fall.

"So.... That just happened." It was Sarah. How long had she been standing there?

"I've been here the whole time," she said. Sarah could read me like a book.

I covered my face with my hands. What else could I say? I'd just given my first kiss to Jordan Taylor. In front of half the school!

It was half way through Math, and I had just been staring out the window while touching my lips with my finger. I kept replaying that kiss, over and over again in my head. I could clearly remember the feeling of those soft lips, and the taste. Strawberry?

Her blue eyes that were opened wide when I kissed her. The feel of her flawless skin under my fingers as I touched her cheek. Inhaling the her smell. It was... intoxicating.

Those stupid butterflies were back again. This time they were joined in with something new. A warmth that was beginning to spread from between my thighs. I'd done sex-ed classes before, and had an inclination as to what was happening. But this was still entirely foreign to me.

But it wasn't uncomfortable though, I thought with a smile.

"What you thinking about?"

I jumped at Sarah's question, then turned red from embarrassment.

"Oh? What's this? Thinking about Jordan again?" Poking me in the ribs, "Feeling a little horny after that kiss?"

"What? NO! What are you talking about," I forcely stammered out, while avoiding eye contact. Holy shit! Can this girl really read my mind?

"I'm just teasing."

"But, just say...um, someone was horny," I whispered. "Um.. W..What would that be like?"

Sarah's eyes opened wide. Her mouth opened but nothing came out.

"Forget it. Forget I said anything." I was now mortified. Why was my mouth running faster than my brain?

The bell rang to end class. I jumped up and ran straight out, not even waiting for Sarah. I just wanted to go and find somewhere to bury myself until it was time to go to College.