ChanChang Oneshots

love me or leave me

Why was he doing this? Why couldn't he just make up his mind? Did he really love me?

Changbin snuggled closer to his blanket. He felt like crying but just couldn't. He shouldn't be weak. Especially with Chan next to him.

The leader was sleeping peacefully and cuddled up close to the younger. His warm body close to Changbins.

Changbin couldn't sleep most nights. He would think too much. Mostly about Chan. About their relationship.

There were days were Chan would show him love. In front of the cameras, members, fans and even by themselves. Other days, he would distance himself. Be close to other members. And not giving the rapper a time of day.

Changbin didn't know what to think of it. Did Chan really love him like he said he did?

"I love you." Chan says as he hugs Changbin. The rapper felt him tighten the hug. As if Chan was afraid to let go. Like as soon as he releases the younger, he would just disappear.

"I love you too." Changbin whispers. Chan held him so close. There was so much love within the hug.

Changbin tighten his hold on the blanket. It wasn't always like this.

"Chan hyung?" Changbin called out to the leader. He was on his laptop editing the last track for their upcoming album.

No response. Why? Did he do something wrong?

"Chan hyung?" Changbin calls out again. No response. He turns to Jisung and shrugs.

Jisung leans back on his chair and shouts.

"Oi! Chan hyung!" The loud voice echoed throughout the whole studio.

Chan looks up and looks at Jisung. Ignoring Changbins presence.

"What?" He asks. Jisung notices the action. Noticed how hurt Changbin was.

Jisung lets out a sigh. "Changbin hyung wanted to know if a verse should be vocal or rapped. Right hyung?"

Changbin nods, still standing there. Chan doesn't look at the younger still.

"Rap. That'll be your part." Chan answers and goes back to the laptop.

Changbin felt his eyes sting. Why was he cold some days? Why was he so warm on other days?

Changbin froze when he felt Chan's arm around his waist tighten his hold.

"I love you." Chan whispered into the rappers ear.

So he was awake. Changbin nibbled on his bottom lip. Should he say it back? Or say something else?

"Do you love me?" He whispers. He felt Chan shuffle a bit, his hold loosening.

"What?" He asks, voice tired.

"Do you love me?" Changbin repeats.

Chan sits up. Changbin didn't bother to move, his back still towards Chan.

"Of course I do." Chan answers, rubbing the youngers back.

Chan's touch felt like fire against Changbins skin.

"Do you love me? Or would you leave me?" Changbin asks.

Chan couldn't answer as Changbin continued to ask questions.

"Would you show me love one day and then act like I'm nothing to you the next?"

"Why do you act so warm yet so cold?" Changbin felt a tear sliding down his cheek.

"You need to pick one. Love me or leave me." Changbin sits up and faces Chan.

The leader felt his heart break at the sight. Changbins eyes were red and puffy. He was holding back tears but some were falling. He was biting his lips too hard, the skin slightly breaking.

Cheeks were red and warm. Wet from the few tears. Hands balled up and holding the blanket.

"I-" Chan didn't know what to say.

Actions spoke louder than words.

He quickly leans forward and hugs the younger. He felt him shake and tremble. Dry sobs quietly coming out.

"I love you. I wouldn't leave you. I'm so sorry." Chan spoke.

Honestly, he didn't know why he acted like he did. He should've have done it. He should've seen how he hurt the younger.

But he was too dense to noticed. Too busy with being a leader and producer.

"I'm so sorry." Chan sobs. Changbin didn't think the older would breakdown.

"I didn't mean to hurt you. I'm sorry." He kept crying. His sobs becoming a bit louder. Changbin was afraid it'll wake up the others.

"Shhh shhhh!" Changbin tries to calm him down. He shouldn't have said anything.

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said anything." Changbin whispers.

Chan shakes his head. "No, I'm glad you did."

"I'm glad you told me. I'll change. I'll fix myself. I'll never hurt you again. I promise." Chan whispered.

Changbin wipes away the tears from the leaders face.

He believed every word he said. He knew he would keep his promise.

"I love you too."