𝙁𝙖𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙄 𝙈𝙖𝙜𝙣𝙞𝙛𝙞𝙘𝙚𝙣𝙩 𝘾𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙪𝙧𝙮

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After yesterday's disappointment i have locked in my room just thinking about everything , it all seemed impossible and i felt like my head was about to explode.

" It felt like everything was going to be solved i don't understand" Fahriye was also furious about the situation , she was very happy at first but later on when she found out she completely changed .

" It doesn't mean no it's just that we have to wait" i said trying to make it look normal before i go crazy from overthinking .

" Mahidevran sultan would do whatever it takes to take him away from you .. i just know" she said putting down the dresses she was folding " Trust me your highness , the first thing she would do once she's in manisa is search for another grandson .. it will not work in your favour"

" But , i am marrying him for love not to battle with other women who'd get a son first" i stated but asked at the same time , it was confusing how things worked here

" It's not the same here , having a prince is everything . even if you're married to him . you have to birth a son , a crown prince" this was all unsettling and i had a hard time digesting it.

" Mahidevran sultan without mustafa is nothing .. this is a truth your highness , this has to be quick before sehzade mustafa has a son from another woman  " i thought deeply about this and i felt the anger take over me once again.

Their logic was absolutely horrendous , instead of giving women their true value they just use them to have kids . i didn't even want to think about this anymore , it made me sick .

"This is the difference between her and hurrem sultan , look at them now . Mahidevran sultan no matter her status or her bad relationship with his majesty she still holds the winning cards , she has the advantage that not even hurrem sultan can dream of" She was right , it was the main reason why they hated each other , both had something that the other one didn't .

I supposed that Mustafa was still grounded in some way in his room , the only thing he could do was go to his training and come back but i wanted to see him , i wanted comfort , i wanted him to tell me everything is going to be alright but now everyone was against us and this idea , i am sure that by now everyone in the palace knows .

Suddenly someone knocked on my door revealing a girl with a letter on her hand , she bowed down to me and handed it to Fahriye while whispering something to her .

" What is it ?" i asked trying to catch a glimpse of the letter in her hands , she smiled and handed it to me " His highness has sent it to you" i smiled , he thought the same thing as me .

She handed me the letter and i didn't hesitate to open it and read it .

My heart is the one that wrote this , i didn't even had to think twice about writing . you know that i can't go out freely and much worse see you after what happened , but i am willing to cross everything for you . i crossed the sea and borders but now i am crossing my parents will , Meet me at the secret garden . Yahya will bring you here so you don't get lost as every second without you is a torment"

I closed the letter and put it down , i knew that by now my face was red and the biggest smile was written in my face . Fahriye sat down next to me and asked me for permission to read it .

By the time she finished it , i was already serious now . "Your highness .. this is beautiful , i don't think anyone would walk out and leave this love behind" she shyly said closing the letter and putting it in my hands .

" You have to go , don't hesitate or think twice » she said looking at my eyes with so much determination . « I will » i said smiling and getting up from my seat