The Italian Boys

Effort

The weekend came faster than I expected it to I was nervous to hangout with Omar outside of Tutoring i told the chef I was having a friend over and she prepared some snacks for us

He was suppose to be here by 1pm but it's already 2:30 I waited giving him the benefit of the doubt “Omar not coming?” Sage asked walking into the kitchen I shrugged and checked my phone no text “He's probably just running late” I said swinging on a stool

3pm,4pm he never showed nor sent a text “Is he still running late?” Sage asked walking into the living room with Ajax, Tatum and Asher “Haha I'm going to my room” I said walking away why was I disappointed going up to my room

A text finally came in from Omar

-“Sorry I had to cancel my friend Pandora invited me over for a get together reschedule?”

I stared at the text not knowing what to say so I just left him on read turning the shower on I stripped out of my clothes and got into the shower the cold harsh water running down onto my skin I ran my fingers through my hair

Why was I like this? I had friends back home I didn't have to make new ones i finished taking my shower and got dressed into my pajamas taking my meds It didn't make me feel good but I had to do it I didn't wanna lose my mind... again

Turning off the light I layed in bed opening my phone I pressed onto Omar text and began typing

-“Whenever your not busy with your friends”

I replied I turned off my phone and just layed in bed waiting until I felt sleepy from taking my meds “Pollo” Jasmine stood at my bedroom door “What's up love” I asked sitting up “Can we nap in here?” She asked I frowned “We?” I asked Janiyah,Jane, Giuliana and Luciana came from around the corner

“Sure” I said they all rushed into my bed and cuddled up closely to me I covered us with the blanket we all drifted off to sleep...

The next morning when I woke up all my sisters were still asleep it took a little while before I got out of bed but I finally did making my way downstairs breakfast was being made by Lydia

“Your awake early” Asher said sitting at the table “Whatever” I said sitting next to him after everybody woke up we ate breakfast and helped Lydia clean up I took a shower and changed into a hoodie and sweatpants taking my meds

I opened my phone and there was a new text from Omar

-“How about today? I'll even invite my friends”

-“Sounds great you know where I live”

I responded and closed my phone slipping it into my pockets  an hour later Tatum and Matues barged into my room “Omar is here” Matues said I got out of bed and walked downstairs “Are you like one of their girlfriends?” An unknown girl asked Janiyah

“She's our sister one of the triplets run along Jani” I said and waved her off she shrugged and walked away “Come in” I said moving aside they walked in and stared at me “How many of you are there?” An unknown guy asked

“About 15” I replied “Damn” Another girl said “Pollo meet Amy, Pandora, Thomas and Alec their my best friends” Omar said and I nodded “Pollo Mama's on the phone for you” Matteo said coming from in the living room

“We can hangout in the study room that's my brother Matteo I'll be right back” I said and Omar lead them to the Study room Matteo gave the phone to me and smiled

-“Pollo My love are you taking your medication?”

-“I am Mama”

-“I was just calling to check in”

-“How's the business trip?”

-“It's fine”

We talked for 5 minutes before she asked to talk to her baby girls and I went up to the study room “You a mommy's boy?” Alec asked when I sat down with the tray of snacks Lydia prepared “No I don't consider myself one” I said “What do you consider yourself?” Amy asked

“Just human” I responded what the hell? “Your richer than us I mean look at this house your handsome so why just human?” Thomas asked “Because despite having money when we die everyone is going to the same two places heaven or hell there's no in between” I said

“So tell us about yourself Apollo” Pandora said leaning against Omar “You can call me Pollo I've in Italy my whole life we moved for the change” I said “Italy is a beautiful country is it not?” Alec asked and I nodded

“Just too close to family I guess i miss my friends tho” I said they were asking a bunch of weird questions about my life and I started to feel uncomfortable “Guys why don't we change the subject” Omar interrupted and everyone else groaned

“We're just playing around a little Omar” Pandora said and everyone else nodded laughing to themselves I wanted to crawl into a hole and die hanging out with them was difficult they took every chance to change the subject back to me and why I left Italy

Omar tried to tell them to just let it go but they wouldn't I was nervously digging my nails into my arms trying to laugh it off “Hey enough just let it go” Omar ordered and they all became silent my arms were starting to bleed “I think it's time for you all to leave” I said

Omar kept apologize for his friends and I tried to tell him it wasn't his fault but Dax walked them to the front door I couldn't do it I wanted to crawl out of my skin and disappear sitting in the corner of my room huddled against the wall

The voices they're coming to get me there's something wrong with me Fire...Fire...Fire I held my head and sobbed I almost killed them I could have gone to jail I should have it was all my fault everything all the time I couldn't breathe why'd they make me relive it

I hated myself I wanted to be dead I should be dead the world would be a better place I don't remember how I got in bed I just woke up there the next morning late for school my cheeks stained with dry tears

Sighing deeply my dosage isn't enough to last the month everything was getting and feeling so real it wasn't working I was a monster