Love Beyond Shadows (Santiago #1)

Nine

Kabanata 9

Subrang ingay ng cellphone ko kaya't nagising kaagad ako. Ang aga-aga pa ba't may tumatawag na sakin. Kinapa kapa ko ang lamesang malapit sakin upang kunin ang phone ko kaso nawalan ako ng balanse kaya't nahulog ako.

Anak ng pating naman oh

I don't have any choice but to standup to get my noisy phone. Pag ito talaga di importante, sasapakin ko ang caller. Tiningnan ko ang name ng caller but it's not saved in my contacts. Tanging number lang ito. Hmm

09165733041 is calling

I press the answer button. "Hello? Hanna Rose Santiago speaking" Panimula ko sa caller ng number na to, pag ito scam lang susunugin ko bahay ng taong ito. Narinig ko ang pagbuga ng hangin ng tao sa kabilang linya bago nagsalita. "This is your dear brother, Gio" Kaagad akong napangiti ng marinig uli ang boses ng bwisit kong kapatid. The fuck? Halos 6 months na siyang di tumawag at ma-contact.

"Sister tumawag ako dahil gusto kong malaman mong may balak si Crystal na umuwi sa Pilipinas, well supposedly surprise sana yun ni Crystal but I think it's a stupid idea"

Ano raw? Surprise?

"Eh gago ka pala eh. Surprise nga diba at bakit mo naman sinabi sakin n-"

"Because it's a stupid idea"

He said with his boredom voice na para bang ang boring kong kausap. Siguro kung ang mga babaeng may gusto sa kanya ngayon ang kinakausap niya sa ganitong tono, siguro mahihimatay na sa kilig but not me ate niya ako tapos ganito pananalita niya.

"Anong stupid ha Gio?!

"By the way sis, your friend Freya wanted to talk to you, last night she arrived"

Freya, isa siya sa mga kaibigan namin ni Sam. Well hindi basta basta ang babaeng iyon, she's a hot model in Asia back then but right now naging international model na siya.

"Oh, sige I'll talk to her or visit her later and -"

May sasabihin pa sana ako kaso, ang lang hiya kung gwapong kapatid ay binabaan ako. Piste ka. I look at my screen and shock to see that it's actually 10 am in the morning. Oh no! I'm so late!!! Kaagad akong napatayo at wala sa sariling pumasok sa cr but I feel something in my private part. Para bang medyo masakit.

And it all sanked in sa utak ko! Last night! Us! Leonardo! fuck Lahat ng dugo sa katawan ko'y napunta sa pisngi ko. Aghhhagsgsg. Pano ko siya kakausapin?!!! haharapin?!!! Last night is something stupid!! The way I begged?!

"Ahh!! oh"

Flash back from last night appeared in my stupid brain. Kaagad kong kinapa ang kepay ko. Virgin pa naman ako but still!! He finger thing me!! Para ma distract sa kagaguhan ko naligo na lamang ako but even though I'm taking a bath my cheeks are still red.

I'm dripping wet. I mean kagagaling ko lang sa pagligo, tanging towel lang ang nasa katawan ko. I walked in to my closet so I can choose some clothes for me to wear. Pero nasagi ng mata ko ang aking full mirror, I walked to it and slowly removed the towel. Gusto kong makita ang kabuuan ko. When I'm in front of it I made a sour look. Medyo tumaba ako, and I hate it. I look at the valley of my breast and I found a hickey. At the nth time my face is all red again.

Staring deep into my body I felt like I'm so ashamed of it. I hate the moles I have it's located at the left side of my neck, it's not that big but it's still noticable. Then I have this stretch marks, for other woman they would be so proud for having it but for me, I'm not proud of it. Dumako nanaman ang paningin ko sa hita ko at nadama ko ang kalungkutan. I saw my scars, before I love to hurt myself and in all part of my body I choose my thigh since it's not noticable when I'm wearing pants or long skirts.

Naglalaslas ako tuwing nakakadama ako ng kalungkutan or kapag nagka anxiety attack ako. It's my coping mechanism. 1 year had pass since the last time I hurt myself. Akala ko mawawala ito but it leaves a white scars. Overall I hate myself for not being tall enough and sexy enough. My height is only 5'2 my body shape is peach not hourglass. The only thing I love in my self is my hair.

Nakuha ko ang straight hair kay inay kasama narin ang kilay nito. Before I do have thick eyebrows but I don't like it so I made my eyebrows a little bit thinner. Aaminin kong magaganda talaga lahi nila inay since ang lolo niya ay Brazilian. Siguro ang nakuha ko lang kay papa ay ang aking ilong which I'm a bit proud of. I have a small pointed nose. And I also have a light skin. I don't have that very white skin, na halos masisilaw ka but I have an average skin color, not that brown and not that white.

I do have some features of a dark fem, since i have a high check a sharp jawline and most of all I have almond eyes. My mom told me that we 3 inherited our almond eyes from our grandma since she had an almond eyes. Di naman masyado akong kagandahan. But I don't know why some men wanted to marry me or calls me gorgeous. I guess they were just saying it since they wanted to buy some shares from the company.

Kaagad akong nagsuot ng damit since the clock is striking to 11. I do have some meetings with the board executive for our upcoming project in Antipolo. Ito yung idea ni Leonardo, since the Antipolo is near to Baguio much better daw na doon na lang namin itayo ang upcoming projects namin.

I'm wearing an off shoulder dark brown top with long sleeves then paired with a light brown trouser with a brown belt. I'm also wearing a light brown 2 inches long high hills. I looked at myself in the full body mirror and I love my outfit for today, it's called minimalist outfit. It's presentable and not so modern.

I arrived in my building at 11:20. Kaagad akong pumunta sa meeting and I was surprised to see my friend, Trixy. Well she's one of the share holder in HanLand she holds about 15%. 4 board members are here with Trixy waiting for me but actually I'm surprised when the executive meeting room suddenly opens.

"Hi everyone good noon I'm so sorry I'm late"