Barely Breathing

Part 9 🫀🔫

Chapter 16: The truth

Brown eyes spear into me ... i am aware of my attrie.. he says nothing he is taking me in. i am a statue under his glaze. his eyes make the slow trail from my bare feet all the way to my purple hair. its like he is reengraving every detail of my body and face back into his mind. my palms are sweaty, i am burning i am consumed by his presence. He clears his thoart swallowing hard... just the sound of his voice sends my libdo into overdrive, my core heats its like Nate just poured gasoline into the already lit flame. what do i do !! i am stunned into silence as he becames to speak.

Nate: hi just came to check up on you to see if you are feeling better

i dont speak

he waits for me to response and i notice that he balls up his fist in frustration... he continues

Nate: Sel I

Selena: No dont even ... speak to me

he inhales sharply with my reply... but i observe him in confusion when he seems to relax in my presence.

Nate: we have to sit down and talk about us we are two grown adults

i laugh and Nate is pissed

Selena: Nate you lost the privlege to appear in life when you decide to walk away from me !

i feel myself losing the battle over my emotions.. i feel my eyes watering.. fuck fuck. Selena black stop being such a bitch and dont you dare fucking cry in front of him! dont let him see you fall dont let him any weakness ! my actions dont process on time as i decide to slam the door in his face.

Nate is still talking thru the door: I know i fucked up i know that he probably hate my guts ! please give me a chance to explain my point of view of things!! Sel baby the door will not stop me!! i will knock this door down if i have too Dont provoke me !

i yell at him and he bangs on my door... the rush of adreline corse thru my veins is making me sweat... i wont let him win i wont let him hurt me again

Selena: Provoke !!! you got alot of balls showing up to my door step and asking forgiveness that you dont have.

Mojo barks and growls near me and i quiet him with reassuraning pets.

Nate: please open the door and even if your dog bites me i dont care Sel i am not leaving untill u give me a chance to explain

Selena: fuck you and Yes if i have to command Mojo to attack i will !!

Nate: Sel i am losing my patience.... baby please listen to me

Selena: i wont listen to a liar..

my voice trembles

Selena: i ... wont .. listen .. to .. the person who is responsible for my miscarrige

Nate: Sel baby im sorry please dont cry... Sel i am warning you i will break this door down.. if you dont let me in

now sobbing and yell out

Selena: just leave me the fuck alone Nate... you dont have the balls

i walk away from the door and Mojo still alert growls. He follows me and then a crash behind me turns my blood cold.. Nate closes the door behind him.... he reachs me within two strides ! and Mojo turns on him biting him on his leg. i yell Mojo " Down boy" he obeys and sits. tears roll down my face .. blood now trailing down his leg he stands before me... whincing from the bite but Nate composes himself.... i look up into his eyes wishing so deeply that i could stop loving them so much.. wishing that his eyes arent my favorite feature of him.. he closes the distance between us and careless my cheek catching the tears spilling from my eyes.. i turn away and create distance between us..