Mine only

Chapter 11 - I miss you

Alyssa's POV

I woke up next to Aaron and snuggled closer, wanting to feel his presence, but I caught myself thinking it was Enzo. I pulled away, but his arms wrapped around me, yanking me back into him. I never had to pull away from Enzo. He was just like a big teddy bear, ready to cuddle. The people who look most like they hate hugs are the ones best at it.

The sudden ringing of my phone jolted us both up, and I quickly grabbed it, answering it. It was Lizzy.

"Alyssa, we need to talk. Come alone to the base." She hung up, her voice was serious and on the verge of crying. Maybe it was something between her and Alex. Wait. The base. Military base. Could it be? That's why she doesn't want Aaron there? I already knew I was in for an emotional rollercoaster today.

I got ready, throwing on whatever I could and coming up with an excuse to Aaron. I left the house and I ran. So fast. Memories of Enzo chasing me like a maniac came to my head, and I chuckled at the thought. Why didn't he shout that he's got my purse? Why chase me home? But he got with me afterwards, so I don't doubt for a second he had it all planned out.

The familiar building of the base was now standing in front of me. I stopped, taking in a deep breath and looking around it. There were no planes, no one else there. So he can't be. I went inside, and I could tell Lizzy stiffened at my sights.
"That was fast." She said.
"I thought... I thought he..." She nodded in an understanding way.

"He called." I froze. He called? He wasn't dead? He was alive. Enzo is alive. I thought I was going to cry, and I ran up to Lizzy, pulling her into a hug and crying into her shoulder.
"Oh, thank god." I said into her jumper as she rubbed my back.
"I told him about you and Aaron. He wasn't happy. I told him that he needed to let you move on, but he refused and said, "You mean too much to him." And that if I don't tell you he's alive, he'll do things you can imagine." My breath was caught in my throat. He was alive. And he missed me.

"Why didn't he call? Or write to me?"
"We've got the reports that the post office and their communication centre were blown up, and it took time before they could rebuild it while fighting. He was one of the first ones to call. I think he was scared you'd react differently. So he called me." I was over the moon. Aaron completely slipped my mind, and all I could think of was Enzo. And the fact I might be able to jump into his arms one day again. And I wasn't sad anymore. I felt relieved, and like I've been let out of a small cage.

"Do you want me to try and get in contact here so you can talk to him?" I nodded without even hesitation. Knowing he was out there somewhere, fighting to get back to me, all alone made my heart ache. All the memories we had together came running back into my head, and I stood there, desperately waiting for an answer.

Lizzy called the communication centre and asked to speak with CO-143, which I'm guessing was him. I memorised the code in case I had to call him again. Then she put down the phone.

"He'll call once he gets the message. Give it a couple of minutes." I nodded to her words and took a seat in the lobby as Lizzy paced.
"What about Aaron?" She asked, and I remembered his existence.
"I want Enzo. Only Enzo. Aaron was the way I tried to move on, which didn't work. We weren't as happy as I've said. He can't even make me feel good. I don't get that relaxed and stress free feeling."
She nodded. She knew no matter how much she wanted me to stay with Aaron, she had a similar thing going on with Alex, and so she understood.

Then the phone rang, and I slowly approached it. I gently picked up the phone and put it to my ear.
"Hello? Lizzy?" His voice was clear but different. He sounded tired and stressed.
"Enzo?" I asked, just to be sure.
"Alyssa?" A tear fell from my eye.
"Yes it's me...Enzo I've missed you so fucking much." My voiced cracked and I felt his breathing get heavy as if he's holding in a cry too.
"Oh baby, I missed you even more. Oh god, it feels so good to hear your voice." I smiled, noticing his familiar traits. He always told me how he loves my voice.

"Are you okay?" My voice was just above a whisper.
"I'm okay, baby, I'm okay. And you? Please tell me you're okay. Please tell me you still love me."
"I love you. I'm okay now. I'm fine now." The words fell out of my mouth as a reflex, and I relaxed my shoulder slightly when I heard his answer.
"I love you even more. Oh you can't even fucking imagine. I love you more than anything. Talk to me, baby. I wanna hear your voice."

I chuckled slightly, and he joined me as I started taking.
"I thought you were dead... I did something very bad..."
"Aaron." He said it dryly, and it was a punch in the throat. I could tell he was upset, and I had so much regret and guilt in me.
"I'm so sorry, I thought you were gone, and I wanted a distraction. But I missed you so much."
"Dump him. I'm coming home soon, baby, and you know I hate sharing, so get rid of him. For me." I always knew he was protective, and he'd react this way, but I couldn't help but smirk as I motioned for Lizzy to give us some privacy.

"Oh god, if you were here. The things I'd do to you." I knew he was worked up already, and I loved it. I know how much he craved me.
"I'd let you. I crave your touch so bad."
"I'm coming home in about three weeks. Wait for me. Please? Promise me you'll wait for me?..." He sounded desperate. I've never heard him so needy.

"Of course I'll wait for you." I answered, and I heard him let out a sigh.
"I have to go now. I'm on duty, but I'll call you. Is your number still the same as you write on the last letter?"
"Yes. I love you."
"I love you more, baby. I'll call you every day."
And we both hung up. I left the phone by my ear for a minute longer than needed as I replayed our conversation, and Lizzy walked back in.

"All sorted?" She smiled warmly.

"Yes..."