im missing us.

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<>coles pov<>

its 8:35pm.

the day after the nashville game.

im at my apartment in montreal.

nothing from colette.

as soon as we got on the plane i ordered the flowers for her and ive been shopping all day for her.

but theres still nothing from her.

i dont know why she got upset last night and left.

i dont know why she thought it was funny to wear that stupid slafkovsky jersey.

i dont know why i cant go a second without thinking about her.

cold showers wont help the thought about her.

constantly smelling her scent in my apartment isnt helping.

the flower stand i pass by on the way to rink is a reminder of her.

shes consuming my life and i dont
think she even cares about me.

we have a home game tomorrow and i know she wont be there but my eyes will be scanning the crowd for me.

she was there, at my game.

she was.

my phone started ringing, showing me colettes picture.

without a second thought i answered the call.

hearing her sniffling, like shes crying.

"colette?" i asked.

"can we talk..please?" she asked.

i sat up in bed.

"colette whats going on? are you okay? do you need me?"

"yes."

shes crying.

my heart shattered because i cant be there to wrap her in my arms and hug her until the tears stop.

"okay whats going on?"

"im sorry." she apologized. "im so sorry cole."

"why?" i asked, walking around my apartment.

"im such a horrible person."

"colette, please make some sense so i can help."

i set my phone on the table, putting it on speaker and running my hands down my face, i sighed.

"i cant cole...my minds a big mess."

"maybe you should sleep and we can talk tomorrow?" i offered.

"no i need to talk."

"what if i dont want to?" i said.

silence.

i could hear her moving.

"what?"

why would i say that? what the fuck is wrong with me?

"cole? please talk to me." she begged.

silence.

"cole, youre scaring me."

theres no words and my brains not working.

"cole, im missing us." she told me.

i can hear her crying as those words left her lips.

i hung my head low as i hit the end call button.

disconnecting us.

i stood up from the table, leaving my phone there and went back to my bedroom.

this was never the plan. we were never supposed to fall in love. we were never suppose to miss eachother.

i walked to my curtains and before closing them i looked at the sky that instantly gave me a reminder of the only girl i care about in tennessee.

stupid stars that connect us.

the whole plane ride home from nashville, we where surrounded by the same stars we kissed under.

how does she show up to my game in my teammates jersey and then run away from me?

how do i get over the girl when every night im reminded of her?

how does colette live knowing she hurt me?

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<>colettes pov<>

the call ended.

i looked at hadley, his expression of shock matching mine.

"what happened?" he asked.

"i don't know-i really dont. he hung up." i cried.

i want to throw my phone so hard into the floor it shatters into a million pieces.

i want a new phone number so he'll never be able to reach me.

i want to burn every hockey jersey he gifted my family & i.

i want to find different stars to live under.

"i just wanted to talk to him and he said what if i dont want to talk." i cried. "then he went absolutely silent."

hadley sighed.

"i think you two are both confused."

"hadley i dont think thats what is happening. i think were playing this stupid fucking game that he started!" i raised my voice, using my hands as i talked.

"you're playing it back. you are playing it back." he repeated.

"ugh!" i groaned. "i hate him."

"tell him."

i rolled my eyes.

"he'll call back in a little." i said, but more so to myself.

"yeah, okay, i want something sweet, what you got?" he asked.

"i have wine." i said.

"no i need something sweet."

"a sweet treat?" i asked.

"the fuck you say?"

"you need a sweet treat!"

"do you have anything?" he asked.

"yes." i nodded.

we pigged out on every junk food i had my house while i convinced myself cole would call back.

its 11:08pm.

i made hadley watch love island usa, while i checked my phone every few minutes for a text from cole.

"colette, i dont think hes going to text back. he had a game tomorrow and hes probably sleeping." hadley said.

i swallowed.

"i know, i just think that he'll say something if i go to sleep." i said.

"you need sleep too. you have school tomorrow." he said, turning the tv off.

i nodded, got comfy in bed and closing my eyes.

"i hate this hadley." i said.

"i know you do."

"i love him so much and im not ready to give him up. i cant give up on us. not when the biggest reminder of us is the stars that i see every night." i cried.

"i know cc."

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