wolf gang - teen romace

CHANGES

keilani

me and keyan sat in the parking lot of kfc crying, I told him about my eating disorder.

our drive back was silent. he needed to do an order so he just dropped me outside of my house.

"ill never understand why you did that to yourself" he says with tears in his eyes

"me either" I said softly

"drive safe love you panda" I say before he drives off.

I walk into my bedroom and shut my window and curtains, I felt disgusting.

I put on Brooklyn baby, that song always made me feel confident, I didn't

I just sat there in silence for the rest of the night till I fell asleep.

I woke up to keyan yelling, on the phone before pausing "I brought you breakfast, eat please" before continuing to talk walking out

"fuck! you said you had it by tomorrow" keyan yells.

just before I eat my breakfast, I cry. keyan was dealing again

I didn't feel hungry anymore.

I put my hair in a simple bun and covered my whole body with baggy clothes.

I wash my face,before covering it in makeup.

I caught the bus, I couldn't face keyan.

I sat at the very back with my airpods in. I sat next to nobody.

I look on my phone.

keyan: love you bub have a good day

Tyler : I don't know what to say

Tanya: why are you being such a bitch? I miss you

ma: have a good day I'll be back tonight

papa : have a good day my beautiful girl

i only answered my parents before switching my phone off.

I went to first class sitting at the back, nobody went near me.

our teacher rambling about the potato famine. I didnt care.

"pair up please for our project" Mr Gonzalez says

nobody asked to be my partner our teacher had to assign me with tyler

I skipped the rest of the day. walking around the shops nearby.

I went home and powered my phone back on.

Tyler: I'm sorry dude, where were you?

i ignored it

tuesday

i walked down the hallways until I heard Sarah whisper

"see that girl, she relapsed her ano ... look at her arms" she whispers to the girl next to her

my face turns red and I walk away sad, Tanya not by my side.

wednesday

it was all over Tyler and tanya made it official.

then rumours of me went around that I looked like the ugly version of tanya

even rakim asked me if I was good, it was a shallow conversation, he cared. but being near me was social suicide.

Thursday

school was draining.

I barely came out of my room. when I did it was to drink water.

I powered on my phone

tyler: dude I'm worried as fuckk im coming over.

what the fuck? I texted him not to but he was already here.

he stood at my doorway.

my full face done, baggy clothes, I didnt even look like me anymore.

I fake a smile.

"dude are you ok I'm so sorry about this week" Tyler said

"I have never felt so ugly" i burst out into tears

"you know you really made me hate myself" I cry

"you broke me, just because one time I didn't want to be intimate with you" I say looking down whipping my tears

his eyes fill with tears.

"I heard the rumours, I can fucking feel them" I cry

"I can wrap each finger around my wrist, what the fuck!" I stomp my leg crying

he walks over to me and hugs me.

"get off me" I pull away

he stands there almost crying

he pulls me into a hug again. holding me tight.

"she don't know you like me" I cry

i sob into his chest.

"you broke me, I'm not even me anymore" I cry

Tyler was kissing my cheeks where I had tears on them.

when Tyler was sad he didn't speak he just was there.

I fell asleep on his chest, him holding me tight

"I swear I'll never let you go kei" he says to me under his breath

he strokes my hair , kissing my warm cheeks.