RAW #2 FLASHBACKS

FOURTEEN

  When I was fourteen that year was kind of a blur too. I got pregnant. Sister found out and forced me to abort it. But not how you'd think. 

  Yeah it would have been easy going to the clinic and get it done. 

  But no my sister had other plans.

  She forced men to rape me and beat me until I miscarried. I went to the hospital to "get the rest out" and I grieved. 

 I lost my only daughter. 

  It broke me inside. 

  I wanted to end my life then and there.

  But once I tried, my dad found me and took me to a hospital before I could bleed out. 

  I spent my years in abuse and fear but somehow my dad was still there for me.

  Mom? I don't know. She was there for schooling and such but she spent most of her time wanting me to be skinny. That's all she cared about and it caused me to have anorexia from a young age but my parents just thought I was perfectly thin.

  They didn't know about my drugs or self mutilation or anything. 

  It was all a secret. 

  And sister helped me keep the secrets.

  Oh, she was my biggest secret of all. 

  Along with her boyfriend.

  They were both raping me, taking advantage of me, caused me to have threesomes with them and did some of the nastiest things you could figure imagine. 

  During the summer one time, they chained me to a wall with no food for two weeks. Water only. They'd tie me up, chain me down and do horrible things to me. 

  All I wanted to do was die. 

  I prayed every time I took a pill, a shot or was in a room with ten men I prayed they'd kill me.

  But I managed to still be alive and through it all.

  When I turned 15 though everything was about to change for the better.