Does He Know ~ Zayn Malik

Chapter : Nineteen

-3 Months Later-

Zayn has been doing terrible. He dropped out of high school. It's Friday and he was supposed to pick me up 6 hours ago. And like always, he's not picking up his phone. It's 2am and I'm getting ready to go to bed. My window slid open and in he came. He quickly closed it and shut the curtains. "Jesus Christ you scared me." I said. "I know...I'm sorry. I just had to come see you. I'm sorry I didn't pick up. Business was running late." He said. "Your drugs have been in the way of 7 dates already Zayn. I'm starting to think drugs are more important than me." I said. "That's not true baby. You know I love you." He said. "You told me you'd stop with drug dealing." I said. "I know. I'm trying. I really am. It's just hard to get out of the fame but I promise I'll get out eventually." He said laying down next to me. All night long, he said nothing but cute things to me and kept telling me he loved me.

-Next Morning (Saturday)-

I woke up with a smile on my face. That smile soon faded as I turned and no Zayn. Instead, there was a piece of paper.

Leaving you is the hardest thing I've ever done.

You have to know how much I love you.

How much I would do for you.

But this is the only way out for me from this game.

This is the only way I know how to start over.

I didn't have the heart to tell you last night.

I did something horrible.

I ended someone's life and now I'm going to jail as soon as they find me.

As soon as I'm out, I'll quit everything for good.

This will take time.

Maybe even a decade.

I just had to let you know.

You've changed my life more than I knew was possible.

You helped me get here.

I love you.

I'll be back for you, I promise.

-Zayn

I cried my heart out. Cried until I had no more tears to cry. This broke my heart even more than when he cheated on me. The things I could've told him. I didn't know last night would be the last time I'd be in his arms. Last time I could smell him. Last time I kissed him. Last time I'd do anything with him. My mom came up and the note. Instead of saying 'I told you so, I told you he was a bad guy', she hugged me. "Oh baby. Everything's going to be okay." She said. "What if they kill him when he gets out of jail?" I cried even harder. "Don't think like that honey." She said. "If he dies, I don't know what I'll do with my life. I love him so much that I'll probably die of depression." I said. All she could do was comfort me because no one can get me out of this state of mind.

-Months Later-

I haven't heard much from Zayn. I have gotten a few texts here and there but nothing lately. I'd be lying if I said I don't cry over him still. I know he's still running because I would've heard something from Trish. No one still knows how to deal with my sobs here and there. I break down at random times and no one can stop me. Most of the time I try to pull a smile. Sometimes my cheery mood is genuine until I remember him. Kyle and Eric unfortunately broke up. School is about to end. I just got my cap and gown. "Can't believe we're out in less than a week." Said Lauren as she put her cap on. "Ok guys come on." Said Kyle. We all got our letters from the applications we sent out to colleges. We decided to open them together. "I'll read mine first." Said Kyle.

"It is my pleasure to inform you of you acceptance to California Lutheran University!" He read excitedly and we cheered. "Me next." Said Amy flipping her paper over. "On behalf of the Admissions Committee, we are pleased to inform you that we have secured you a spot here at the Art Center College of Design in Pomona, California. Congratulations and welcome to the team!" She said almost in tears. Lauren and Trace decided to read theirs together since they both applied to Northridge and they both got accepted. We applied to the same college. "1.2.3." We said as we flipped our papers over. "On the schools behalf, we are pleased to inform you on your acceptance to University of Southern California!" We said in unison. "YAY!!" We hugged. "Different colleges. We better stay close." Said Lauren. "We're all going to LA so maybe hang out on the weekends?" I suggested. "Yeah." They all agreed.

My mom came to tears as she read my acceptance letter. "I'm so proud of you!" She said and hugged me. I went upstairs and texted Zayn, hopefully he gets it.

To: Zayn

I hope you can make it to graduation on Thursday...I got accepted to USC. I miss you so much babe. Stay safe. I love you.

-Thursday-

I haven't heard from Zayn at all. I invited the Malik's to graduation. I changed into a flower crop top, a white skirt and nude heels. I did my hair and makeup quickly. I had my mom help me put on my gown and my cap. She cried again. "I'm going to miss you so much." She said crying and I had to stop her. We drove over to the school. We took our spots and I looked around. I saw the Malik's but no Zayn. I sighed and took a deep breath.

After the ceremony, I approached the Malik's and hugged them. "Congratulations honey!" Said Trish. "We handed all the gifts to your momma. We didn't want you to carry all of it." She added. "Aww you guys didn't have to." I said. "Have you heard from Zayn?" I asked and they all looked at each other. Doniya handed me an envelope. "Open it and go quick." She said and I did.

Come to Miller's room.

I looked up at the. "Go!" Said Wali. I thanked them and quickly left. I came to tears as I saw him standing there. I ran over to him and jumped into his arms. "I'm so proud of you baby." He said kissing me. I've been craving his lips, his scent, him in general. "These are for you." He said handing me roses. "I love you." I said and he smiled. "I love you." He said. "Here's the thing, I figured that if I keep running, it'll be longer till I see you again. If I turn myself in, they'll give me less time." He said.

"I'm leaving now. I love you baby girl." He said kissing me. "Where will you be placed?" I asked. "I don't know. But I don't want you to come see me. I don't want you to see me while I'm in there." He said. "Zayn." I started. "I love you Sabrina. I do, but I don't want you to see me in that kind of state." He said. "Okay..." I said. "I have to go. I love you so much." He said kissing me again. "I love you." I repeated. "By the way." He said raising his shirt. My name was tattooed on his ribcage. He kissed me one last time and left.

I found my clique and told them what happened. They hugged me. "So now we party!" Said Lauren and I went to my mom and gave her my cap, gown, and flowers. "Make good choices!" She said as I got in Trace's car. I laughed and closed the door. Tonight I just want to drink. After the party, we're going to a hotel.

-Next Day (Sunday)-

I woke up with a pounding headache. I drank until I couldn't hold anything in my stomach. I ran to the bathroom and let it all out. I took some pills and laid back down. Trace and Lauren have a room together. Amy and Eric are sharing, Sarah and I are sharing. We decided to order room service.